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i wish he wouldn't assume things:[
i wasn 't mad about anything today.
and now there's this big miscommunication
but it kills me that its as if he doesn't want to hang out with me. if he doesn't want to hang out with me, i'm not going to be with him. It doesnt make sense. -
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welll aj was so cute since friday. but talking to him this morning, he's completely on the flip side. i actually thought he was going to break up with me. the immediate thing that went through my head is steve saying "you can find better" and what if there is a guy out there who will be cute the way aj is 24-7... i dont care i want aj, but i dont ( Read more... ) -
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he's been so good, he's, i guess, attempting to improve what it was that caused "distruption" last time. He's showing some more sensitivity, which is all i need. i love him, i hope he loves me jsut as much. -
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i'm really happy with him:] i'm glad he's mine. i just want to carry him everywhere with me in my pocket.
but he's a priority. i think i'm just an option, or something less important than a priority. maybe i'm putting too much in than i'm recieving? all i want is ballance. -
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In my soul i know i contributed to Brian's death, i just don't know how ( Read more... ) -
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Wellll apparently he didn't break up with me to be with other girls, and he still wants to be close but he can't walk with me in the halls, meanwhile he's with other girls. I went out with him for maybe 2 years total, i know how he is especially with girls. i'm certainly not stupid ( Read more... ) -
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AJ is a complete retard. I honestly hate the way he used to be back in freshman year. I couldnt do anything without him wanting to bang his head against concrete. I was really needy this week. Probably because of my period. I'm fucking horny as hell hahaha! But i'm not going to look at it as my mistake. I was completely happy with him, i couldn't ( Read more... ) -
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Wow. i actually wrote an entry when i was in my active drug addiction. I dont know how i passed that drug test i was talking about. I did coke at a show acouple days before. I can't believe how much of a liar, theif, shitty person i was ( Read more... ) -
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this is the worst shit i've gone through, even my own FRIENDS are spreading false shit about me. Taking the drug test won 't prove anythign to anyone else, but atleast i can have some dignity in myself and know the truth that I miss brian dearly and i wouldnt do a thing to hurt him. -
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AJ IS THE BIGGEST FUCKING LIAR AND IM DONE WITH HIM. NO MATTER HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM IM NOT GONNA BE WITH HIM WHEN HE'S MAKING ME LOOK LIKE AN ASS, CUZ HE'S LYING. FUCK YOU AJ LOESSER