AJ NEEDS TO COME BACK!

ah i love him, he said he'd always love me..

I thought he meant it.

i cry like every other day now, that's good!! haha, but this shits larger than life, too hard to deal with. I'm still coming to the realization that we're not together. Once i get it in my head that he'll never come back i'll be okay.

he gave me his sweatshirt, so i can make it smell like me. he wants to think of me and not cindy. Today he kept getting calls from her, and she was like begging for him.BITCH hahah jk im not gonna say anythign cause i don tknow her. but im sure she hates me. =/

the show tonight was very successful, for me.
im looking foward to tomorrow. i might hang out with kalyn (who's hot ass vest i have=]) and bobko and stuff.. and then probably hanging out wiht aj.

im so completely fascinated with the life of laguna beach. Everyone else hates it, but i'd love to have fashion shows from time to time, have nice cars, do stuff that's completely unnecessary for prom, ect.

i've always wanted that life style, although im sick and twisted, haha, i'm a huge girly girl and i love glamor.

although AJ isn't, Im so happy that i'm becoming friends with people such as Jared and Johnny. Although they're a bunch of alcoholics, when they're not drinking.. they're so nice, and sweet, and just amazing. Now, this is getting AJ upset that i'm even talking to them, which i understand because they're about 20 and i suppose intimidating, but the ( Read more... )

how many fucking times am i gonna have to show this bitch what the fuck is up.

i swear to fucking hell, im gonna beat the fucking piss out of stephanie whatever the fuck berstein.

i have a feeling some crazy shit is gonna do down.
im pumped for any fights
but, that's not what i mean. i shouldn't say anything.
but, i think something else is gonan come up, that' im going to enjoy. a friendship i guess.

Everyone's saying, "oh i can't wait to grow up" What's the big rush. Everyones JUST a teenager, they have many more decades to grow older.

Today and yesterday were fun with aj. we've had fun. The thing is, i'm not up for kissng. I dont know why. Other than that, we played around a lot together. He taught mehow to play bass, and he's very proud of me. That's so boyfriend like. Next he wants to teach me CS haha, then hopefully some skateboarding shiz. I can't teach him anything. I'm so ( Read more... )

i have a babyduck.

and i think, hopefully, i can catch it's familyless sibling. (aj can't catch ducks)

Well, it's name is Rory, and it crapped on my arm. But it's the cutest anyway.

this is like, my 10th baby duck. =]