" i fear your freedom, thus i must fear my own.i recognize you, and i am trying to free you of me. it is your feerdom that i love. i have not yet learned to love without holding on." - s. williams ( Read more... )

lay your head upon my chest. feel my heart beat, feel my unrest...

i am now taking my cues from the june carter school of loving an addicted man...

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i am sick. i have been sick all week. missed too much work, i am going to realize how much when i get paid. it wont matter at all. i feel better, and then it getts worse. my immune system has be waving good bye to be over the past year or so. i know its my fault ( Read more... )

i am left to my own devices again tonight. hopefully matthew will come home, and we will have a visit with the boys. adam bought several epic 80's movies , and we are trying to work our way through them ( Read more... )

chicago on saturday was good, even though danny had to bail out at the last minute. we slept most of the way up there. matt thought going to the sears tour would be fun, so i obliged. we waited an hour for the famed 50 mile view, that i could have done without. went to rotofugi and we each bought one of the new monger series toys. checked out ( Read more... )

now that matt has a different job, i have a lot of time to myself. i liked our days running parallel to each other, and now im lonely. we have been spending most every night with adam, and erik. its nice when your friends are just next door. i slept through brian's birthday party saturday night, and most of sunday. matthew is sick, and i think his ( Read more... )

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i could have taken more than i did...