So...Christmas morning, I woke up puking and kept that up through the rest of the day. MERRY CHRISTMAS. I got some cool things though...mostly clothes, but clothes that I like...and money and gift cards. So it wasn't a totally bad day. Just...lame.
And New Year's Eve was Steph's birthday, but I couldn't see her...we texted all night and day... ( Read more... )

For a few people.
Excuse my boldness.
I'm sorry.
No words will ever be enough.

"Cry For You [I'm Sorry]"
Ash Zendejas

A simple girl, a lonely girl,
In this simple world, this lonely world.
Flesh like snow, no one could know.
A pure white glow, how could anyone know?

I had the chance to know,
I had the change to grow,
I had the world on a string,
Yet I learned ( Read more... )

I'm in Kellar now. For Christmas and all.
I really hate relationships and wish I could just quit them.
Weird how I get so close and never just quite do it.
I should know better though...especially with the flippant mind of young teenage girls...ugh.
I'm staying through as long as I can. That's all I do, after all. Hold on to things, even when they go ( Read more... )

Sleeping pills are my friend.
Hooray for other people's prescription drugs.
If I didn't have those...I would be facing horrible nightmares. They knock me out and let me sleep long enough to where I mostly forget my dreams. I would rather sleep in peace than fear.
I really don't know what to write. I've been so sick lately...for a few reasons...and all ( Read more... )

I'm okay now. I repelled whatever I thought was going to happen to me. I'm okay.
It was well timed. Nice try.
I feel so good and just...free...and yet a bit scared...I really want to hold Steph and kiss her...it's part of what's making my breathing hurt...it's so weird...argh. Anyway.
I let go.
I'm okay.
I'm so glad!!!

Your sins into me, oh, my beautiful ( Read more... )

I just did the research.
Acetaminophen.
I overdosed on that shit by 3,000-6,000 mg...
Recommended not to take over 4,000 mg a day.
Said 7,000+ could lead to a fatal overdose.
I took 10,000 mg.
How on Earth did I make it through as if it wasn't that bad...?!
Now, I'm having horrible breathing problems and sleeping a lot, and I don't know what the fuck I ( Read more... )

Insanity has been the past few days.
Maybe a week now...I don't know...
I haven't had much going on, except what others bring to me...so, um...yeeeah...
Damnit. I can't believe this shit.
I love my Stephanie...and yes, she IS mine...it's confirmed and set...
We're together, and we want it to be forever...and we will make it forever.
We talk more than any ( Read more... )

I finally broke my annoying habit without the use of chemicals. Hahahaha. =]
I am almost quite happy...I'm not sure what to do about this one--five problems. Yet, each time, it's exciting...we'll see.
My body is in so much pain, and I'm kinda mad about it, because it was someone else's doing, but it's funny, too...
Hmm. My Thumbelina~ she and Angel ( Read more... )

I know who I want.
It doesn't matter about age to me.
It matters about the feelings, the chemistry between us...
I have never been tested like this.
I can't get enough...I hate it, but I love it.
I am sick of being hurt, but I crave it.
I am a living paradox.
If you want to disown me, friend or aquaintance, fuck you, too.
I feel what I feel, you feel what ( Read more... )

My reality.
My reality has been a repeat of itself. Over and Over. Over and Over. Over and Over. An endless cycle, like I have determined this life to be.
A broken record.
Even the chemicals I have in me at the moment cannot cover this up. It does not matter what I put into my body. It does not matter what I put into the "world." It does not matter ( Read more... )