Bowling alley. Crazy energy, from the people and their...situations.
Before that, got lost. For a while. Used a venomous tongue, tore her apart, then was just lost...I partially still am...but I don't know what to make of it...we're texting now...
...what in hell is this?

I'm driving myself crazy.

Awesome.
Split.
I'm done.
I'm so fucking done.
I quit.
I quit.
I quit.

Breathe.
Air.
Breathing is a chemical reaction that does us good.
Breathe.
Ash, damnit, breathe.
Again, I am split. Internally. Two worlds. Yet, I just want to say 'fuck them both' and plunge into chaos. I can't decide. There's three now. Why this third one...it's not what I want...what I want is someone to hold me when I am this way. Because of the age ( Read more... )

I now sit here at Micheal's, where I live. His parents cleared a room out for me and him to share. Hopefully this will work out.
Yesterday, Stacy dropped me off at the bowling alley, then texted me to tell me she was going to stop doing D.X.M. I'm glad for her. It will help her immensely, I'm sure. She wants me to back up on it...I'm going to try... ( Read more... )

Today/yesterday turned out differently than what I had originally expected. I spent most of my day at the bowling alley, talking to people as they came and went. Reaper was there from 11 in the morning until we officially left at about 10:30 p.m....I had lunch with Brannigan for about an hour, then Reaper and I went to someone's apartment to smoke ( Read more... )

Rawr.
Hmmm.
I'm at Stacy's, texting Steph.
....she still has feelings for her ex. I should have known  better.
I'm going to wait.
Hopefully, I don't drive myself insane again.
BRANNIGAN!!! She's so freaking cool!!! We're going to go ice skating tomorrow, then after she goes to work, we're gonna smoke hookah!!! John/Squish will be joining us!!! ^_^ I'm ( Read more... )

I made a new friend. She's insanely amazing. She added me on MySpace through our friend Squish's profile, and after reading her bulletins, I saw that we were traveling the same path lately. We started texting, and we had one of the most awesome conversations I've ever held. I want to have more of those, with more people, I want to talk to everyone ( Read more... )

So, I'm single, but unavailable. Haha. Weird...but it works. I still have her. That's all I care about.
We bailed Megan out yesterday. Stephanie paid for the rest of it...she's really amazing. I'm grateful to have found her.
Hmmm. I...am...bored. >__<
Ugh. I need to get back to Micheal's...then I can probably see Steph tomorrow...I hope. I've been ( Read more... )

All of this is my redemption.
If my view on things goes back to the way it was, and I go back to the same piece of shit I was, I don't care.
I am doing everything I need to do now, and it will all get done.
When that is done, all of this unfinished business, I am done. I am at peace. I could die, and I would be perfect.
Who knows how long this will go ( Read more... )

You come across very few individuals who experience so much at a young age. Stephanie is one of them. She's had to deal with a lot of death and pain already. It's interesting to talk to her. She has a lot of the same views I do when it comes to life, and now, when I told her of everything I have been learning, she's  been able to easily understand ( Read more... )