you don't smile at me that much anymore, but when you do it makes me sad.

how do you amputate the love of your life from your world?
you don’t. it is painful beyond belief, but there are ways of triumphing.
     -Janine Di Giovanni

what matters most is
how well you
walk through the
fire.
-bukowski

still so restless. it's been almost a month.
"me too".
i just dont know how.

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it so happens that life often presents you only with a choice between two kinds of suffering, two forms of nothingness, two varieties of despair. all you can do is choose which you think will be the less unbearable, or even the more attractive, which will allow you to retain at least a modicum of pride or self respect...i could have given her so ( Read more... )

i also have shirts in multiples with a man's face on them who wont even acknowledge me anymore. buy them. i was in love.

yeah, everyone i know is losin' their minds. yeah, but everyone i know has a really good time. drillin' holes in my head, ah, you will never go blind. i will always be the outlaw for your love.


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AND YOU DONT HAVE TO SAY "I LOVE YOU TOO" ITS NOT WHAT I WANT TO HEAR FROM YOU.

i am having a hard time writing songs about my feelings. the feelings that i used to have a solid grasp on. used to be able to say point blank "i miss this. i want this." being an emotional vagabond causes me to question every thought. everyones elses words running ( Read more... )