["when barcelona fell, you and she flew to england, and then took a ship back to new york. your love for each other remained in spain. it was only a war love. you loved only yourselves, loving each other in spain during the war. on the atlantic you were different toward each other and became every day more and more like people lost from each other ( Read more... )

i decided that this year and new years and midnight i can reverse all the wrongs that happened over the past one. i fucked over the man i loved [or love i dont know, i dont know what it all means, still] and even dared to be surprised when he left me. i became consumed by men and scenes and me me me and how can i further analyze you and make sense ( Read more... )

oh -, is this thing of ours still on?
for i haven't slept a wink since you have been gone.and yet everything is much much more complicated than it needs to be. there are four men who i want in my life, but they are impossible to get along with simultaneously. it makes me sad that things just can't work out for me for once. i will always crave this ( Read more... )

my happiness is no longer in the proximity of a 12-minute metro ride. it is 2500 miles away. it is in los angeles wildfires. and it is still all too uncertain ( Read more... )

friday: after hustling a long day at work, met rachel and hit up froggy bottom and mcfaddens. headed over to gw to see ra ra rasputin and us royalty. they were really good and i was glad to finally see us royalty live. r. wakeman invited me to the afterparty, but some events beyond anyone's control upset me so i rolled with p. kigongo. hung out ( Read more... )

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needing a chest to sleep on and being contented to trace tattoos, but still keeping my distance. it's probably for the best because i cannot fall in love and no one is trying to have me. and it's funny because the other night i said that i don't get excessively jealous. then i laughed to myself a little because i don't, mostly, but one person ( Read more... )

"suddenly i woke up. my mouth was open. i had the feeling that i had just yelled 'MACHINE GUNS!' at the top of my lungs."

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