and to boot, my electric blanket doesn't even work anymore.

i'm so fucking cold.

i feel like shit. and i should. i fucking ruin everything and everyone's lives. i am no good to anyone.

Mom isn't coming this week, but she says sunday through tuesday.

therapist on saturday at 1. i'm nervous.

shit.

it's been so cold lately!

Varvel gave me a "moleskine" notebook, it's a little black notebook that has a place keeper ribbon and a little pocket at the back to put stuff in. i'm trying to write in it, it's easier if i do it in french because it doesn't seem like the writing is as crappy (even though it's probably worse). the only problem is that ( Read more... )

mr. varvel wants me to write or draw. alas, i have no talent. anywhere.

i've been crying a lot lately, it's weird. i cry easily, but i haven't in awhile.

dying my hair "medium brown".

no weezer, no death cab, no fun.

i'm not doing so well lately. this depression just won't go away this time.

i feel horrible. i'm just so freakin irritable towards my friends lately, and i'm trying really hard not to be, but i can't help it. and i'm not spending really any time with them whatsoever. mostly Hannah. school and field hockey (in a mean evil combination world ruining duo) are occupying most of my time. and if it's not either of those ( Read more... )

anybody wanna lend me $130 for about a month? hahahaha, yeah, i didn't think so.

good news: my mom is sending me $100 so i can get a new phone with t-mobile! yay!

bad news: to get the phone i want to get (for free anyway), i have to get it online. the only way i can get it online is to use a credit card. i still haven't been able to pay off my overdraft charges, so i can't use my check card until i do. which means i'm ( Read more... )

it was so much fun. too bad i couldn't stop thinking about calculus and french/spanish. that was weird. and i was super tired. but still, it was a lot of fun. i love my red light bulbs!