i got a 54/52 on my spanish 2 chapter one test! that's like 104%, so i'm super excited.i'm still failing euro ( Read more... )

i'm so scared of this right now. i'm scared of myself, how much i'm going to let myself feel, how attached i could get to something so far out of my everyday life. but at the same time it feels so good and so right.

dang, this seems to happen a lot. we teenagers sure do fly off the handle quickly.

i'm so glad we got that out of the way.

now hopefully it won't happen again. he said it wouldn't, but who knows?

the more i think about it, the more pissed off i get. i'm done with this. i don't deserve to be treated like this, even if i made a mistake. a mistake that i fucking apologized for.

crying now. i don't know how to vent this.

completely unrelated, i just really love this song:

i am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes ( Read more... )

And you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented...Daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

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And if you have to leave ( Read more... )

he was right, i should go for it. because it could be something really awesome and fun, at least for a little while. for up to a year. so why am i still so hesitant? why am i so freakin scared?

i just went to the zoo with Ian, that's all.

i'm gonna be in such deep shit. maybe i just won't tell?