I am reminded of the silly Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young song "Almost Cut My Hair ( Read more... )

I'm 165 lbs!!!!!

Two years ago, this news would've made me cry, but this is very good news now. 165 and dropping, slowly and steadily. Maybe I'll have my real shape back by summer, but with boobs this time.

You know some days when you just lose your grip on life and the will to live it? Maybe not. Or maybe everyone has them. I'm having one of those days. I think I'm better than I was this morning, but this morning was enough. Wanting to die, but not wanting to die. Wishing that my heart would simply stop beating. I can't figure out why I felt ( Read more... )

I've screened all the comments, so if you comment, no one else will know who you are but me, if that's what you're afraid of. I would like to know who the person is who commented on one of my most recent entries is. No, I'm not calling you out because you pissed me off or anything. I just feel like I deserve to know who you are if you're going ( Read more... )

is gone ( Read more... )

I've been looking through a bunch of facebook friends' high school pictures, and it hit me again that I just didn't really matter to these people. Maybe a tear or two at my funeral, but really, I just didn't matter. No maliciousness--they just didn't care. And as time passes, I see that they still get together, and they still communicate, but no ( Read more... )

And this is Firday the 13th. Ooh. Middle of October, and I really just don't know if I'm going to dress up. I like dressing up, but will there be a point ( Read more... )

Earlier, I was watching these amazing live broadcasts of a radio show Zach Braff hosted with a bunch of Last Kiss soundtrack artists, and then I went to bed. But now I can't stop crying. I don't know why, maybe the anniversary of her leaving, but all these images of Grandma started shuffling through my mind. The baby pictures of her holding me ( Read more... )

Person has been located and spoken to, though the news was less than good.

I feel like an involuntary agoraphobe.

I want to love me.

My thoughts turn to someone when they shouldn't.

Life hurts sometimes. Sometimes a lot more than it ever has a right to.

Because of combined factors of school, weight, social life, etc. But mostly right now because I'm worried sick about a friend. We had plans to go out yesterday, and she never called. Initially I was peeved, but now I'm really really worried. She still hasn't called, even though I've called 5 times and left a message, and her phone isn't dead, ( Read more... )