i finally cleaned my room after months of living in a junk yard. i'm excited and i can't believe my eyes when i look around.

i'd love to go for a long drive down a deserted highway. pedal to the medal just to see how fast my car can fly. i crave freedom and i'm not sure what from. it always seems like i'm running away from something. let's take the time to figure that out. what could it possibly be? i'm thinking it's either the future, or death. i guess they can be ( Read more... )

i dunno, maybe. definitely.

i purchased a paid account thinking that i would actually journal. well, that hasn't happened. i often think of writing in my journal, i just don't take the time to sit down and do it. well, here's a shot. work is fine. love life sucks. self-image is improving. the hunt for a lifelong career is getting better. i think i want to be a nurse. i dunno ( Read more... )

i told myself that i was going to write in here everyday...guess that went out the window. i need to talk to my mother. this sucks. i don't know how i'll move on, but i need to.

i had a small stint of depression today. i'm living a surface life and i can't stand it. i feel lost and i don't know how to find my way back. i'm in such a deep hole. i don't know how i am. i don't know how to find myself. what am i going to do? i just hate not being able to open up to ppl. i watch others and it feels so freeing. they just talk ( Read more... )

my parents get on my nerves. and i don't feel like saying why. i like being different. um i don't feel like doing this. i need to learn how to stick to my guns. i need to grow a stronger backbone. i'm thirsty. i'd like a cold sandwich. GnP all the way. I know my boy Arlovski is going to win it all. C'mon Crow!!

again, i write. i'm not really sure what to say about. i bought yet another CD face today. this makes number 3. i've spent over 100 dollars on CD faces so far. it's crazy. i can't keep hold of a little cd face. sheesh. my feet hurt. work is a bitch.

blah, blah, i wrote in here today. man, i need to take a shower. a girl just quit from the vet clinic today. she just left. she pretended like she was going to lunch and just didn't come back. she said that she wasn't getting paid enough. that's so immature. she could have at least tried to negotiate before she just quit. oh well. it sucks now ( Read more... )

court day was today. it didn't go as planned, as i thought. my dad doesn't give women enough credit. i unfortunately don't think that he'll ever learn that lesson. NEVER go to court of any kind without a lawyer. judges don't take you seriously. at least the one today didn't take my dad seriously. oh well, she's staying for now. i was hoping that ( Read more... )