I dreamt of you again last night..
I wonder sometimes....what could have happened, what would have really gone on.
Suffocation is never easy.
Sometimes, without a doubt, there are no choices left.

I will never win.  

yeah ( Read more... )

What  significance does a dream hold??
Is it simply subconcious nonsense bundled up with a piece of twine and wrapped in cheese cloth for your mind to unwrap and sift through during the night while you're sleeping?
What if it is a dream of infidelity, murder, life, leaving?
What does a dream hold in itself? Does it mean I miss you, or simply the ( Read more... )

I am going crazy from anger.
I no longer recognize myself. My body is foreign and my face a stranger's. My stomach has grown a mind of its own and has begun waging a war.
I no longer feel like me.
I feel empty, used, betrayed and stupid.
Most of all I just feel mad.
How can I get over this anger and let myself live?
Do I get rid of all the people I can' ( Read more... )

 So I think during the summer I am going somewhere else.
Not really in the summer, but when school ends.. I need to get out of here for a little while and figure out what I want to do.. I mean, I know what I want to do, but I need to figure out how and where.

And when/where ever I go it will be alone. I really need to clear my head! There's so many ( Read more... )

2008 is really gonna be full of change.

I'm tired of stopping  and starting with people.

I need to change me.

I need to take things more seriously, especially school.

I know I could have done more in the time I have gone, dropped out, gone dropped out, etc.

But I didnt. End of story.

No regrets, it happened to teach me a lesson.

Alot of things have taught ( Read more... )

Well...day one over.
Bad and not so bad...really.
I ate about 4 1/2 apples today, took my acidophilus and garlic. And drank water. And green tera (cuz I got a headache).
Annnywayyy...
this kind of suck but then again not really because it made me realize how much I eat. Not that it's a bad thing because I weigh like, 112 lbs. But it made me realize ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is the big day.
Try my crazy diet day.
Got everything from Apples to Acidophilus.
God it's 4:00am.
I'm going to bed.

SO I paid $50 for this book... Acne Free in 3 Days by Chris Gibson.
I got it yesterday and I'm already done with it.
It's amazing, it's like I wrote it. He talks about how he was skeptic about using all natural treatments (as I quote):

"At the time, I associated herbal treatments and remedies, as well as all kinds of alternative medaicne practices, ( Read more... )

I love Marvin very very much ( Read more... )