still using this userid too.
wow.
i need to understand that i'm nothing anymore.
this is too hard to even deal with at all.
who am i and why is this so hard?!

help me to see this please.

someone.

Is that a picture of me on the side? Is it really a part of me? Who can see this? Who understands or cares? Who's just playing and really doesn't care about anything at all? I'm tired of the charade that exists in every single exercise that I complete with every relationship that I'm in...whether platonic or otherwise. I think that it's a ( Read more... )

inside of my soul there are dark and brooding spirits ( Read more... )

in the confusion that surrounds my life at this point in time, it is impossible for me to maintain this on a regular basis. i can say that my grades were for the most part good and that the semester was a success. everything else is a fucked up wash. oh well right.

what next!?

tired.

the kids have been worth every second of it. it makes me want to take everything else and tell all those people to go screw themselves. even though as this new week begins i'm sunburned, peeling, and physically exhausted, it was the best two weeks that i had all summer. w00t. back to work.

so i'm feeling kind of numb to everything. i want to sleep more but i'm so tired that i can't sleep. i'll probably do the walk that i do every day that i'm off work...which is never...so as a result i haven't walked as much as i would like to this summer because i work too fricking much. it's coming up though...in two weeks i'll be working 4 ( Read more... )

just thought i would say that i am kind of ecstatic for no apparent reason other than i love the new system of a down song. oh well what can i say? i'm enjoying myself.
only thing that could be better is monty python on the tv.