the other side

[hollowlies]

Yesterday I was walking through downtown boulder and on the other side of the medium are two cars stopped in the middle of the street and the man in the second car(the one behind) is reaching into the drivers side of the first car and punching or pulling, there is an obvious violent physical altercation going on. I look around and notice two other

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[skinnyjimmy]

Life is a touchy subject, man. Everything affects everything in one way or another, some more than others. As soon as you're born you come with all sorts of strings attached. There's no real way of avoiding it. Sometimes I wonder if the purpose of life is to live in harmony and do the right thing. But everyone is so far from that, I guess you just have to deal with the cards you're dealt. If you make a mistake, small or big, be strong and fix it, and move on.

You can do it dude, you're 5,000 times the size of a little white 2mg bar.

[tres_jolie_]

Do you ever think of quitting?

[r_u_serious_man]

I agree with skinnyjimmy. Bert, everyone has the ability to change. And I know you have a strong mind. It's all about mind over matter. It is. I've never really given a shit about school before. I would settle for whatever grade I got. But last semester was different. I told myself everyday that I was into it. I got excited about it. And I made an effort to do well. Bert, I got a 4.0 my first year at a private art school, far from home. I had tons of bullshit to deal with, within that whole time frame. But I took advantage of my mind and how strong it is. And I proved not only to myself, but others of what I am capable of. Of what everyone is capable of. I've changed so much from the person I was in highschool. I've changed from two years ago. I've evolved into someone better since even a month ago. I know you don't really want to give up, bert. I know what you're capable of.

[reliefbyrant]

its like you made that story up... lifes beckonings are quite a beautiful moment. Its like the universe has been inspired by itself to put together a scenario just for you...the ever present seeker... to interpret and inscribe ourselves in relation to enviroment.There are some who have lost this art of interpretaion, there are those who see these great events as random, diconnected, and meaningless. There is not one waking moment where human behavior is not dispayed. There is not one waking moment where we can't interpret ourselves.

who knows what im gettin at.

its good you didnt get hurt in the scuffle

[hollowlies]

it is pretty amazing that this altercation was so personal to me. It is interesting that addiction is probably the largest problem I've had to deal with since I started using drugs or since I was 15 and to sit across the table from my own parents and see the pain I've caused them but lets not use parents, let's just say choices we make, whether they are drug related or not, are so interconnected-we are so interconnected-that such types of moments happen all the time but THIS time, it took strangers, it took boulder, CO to make me see what and how our choices affect others. The concept of this violent altercation and the kid's safety seems to be almost secondary to the fathers, apparent hopeless actions of lashing out. I mean, is that not what we do when we feel cornered or as a last result? Is that what I'm doing right now, lashing out, beating myself and others around me? I have seen friends, family, acquaintances, people directly involved in my life struggle but sometimes, and only sometimes it takes complete strangers to open

we are all worth it

[chineeserawks]

You will understand Bert....you will understand it all in time. But getting high stands in the way of you getting it, understanding it. Life is a journey and we figure things out as we go along....if we figured it all out at once then there would be nothing left to do, you would have no more room to grow, it's a process. You have to be willing to participate in that process and when you are high you aren't really participating, you are barely exsisting. When we are using we hurt a lot of people, including ourselves...but that doesn't mean that we are bad people...we are sick people....but we can get well and stay well. And those 2mg bars....well they do become bigger than us, they become bigger than the world. We can't do this shit on our own....it takes a whole army and a miracle to kick that shit...but I believe in miracles....I believe my life is a miracle and I believe yours can be one too.

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[reliefbyrant]

When we have sobriety we finally start to live and experience and understand and love and laugh.......and it is for real, it is no longer a life created by chemicals but a true and genuine experience....really living life is amaizing...the laughing the crying, the excitement and even the boredom, its all wonderful when YOU are the one really living it and not the drugs

[fallingsilvers]

first of all, thank you again for this. from my experience, perhaps more healing and more stimulating than any drug, philosophy, or 'knowledge', i have found to be an existence in the Stillness and Silence of Nature and walking amongst all of her exquisite order and brilliance...Because in that Silence, there is a kind of freedom that i found, one that anybody can experience if he/she is willing to truly listen and willing to see with eyes anew. it is Nature, truly wide open and unfortified spaces, i believe, that is the element we and all of the rest of bounded civilization will always, and indefinitely, lack...it is an element with an effect that is immune to explanation or a finite 'understanding' as we currently define the word. it is immune to even generalization... rather, it is a fleeting moment, a momentary sense, the hairs that would stand up on the nape of our neck, that they recognize the unity and a calming that we can individually, and connectively, experience in such a true state of being and pure bliss. and again, if

[targetmarket]

ahhhhh staring elf (dun dun dunnnnnnn dun dun dun [acoustic guitarish]) ... stara-yuuuu.

[fallingsilvers]

may 11!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!