These little girls.
So fake so thin.
Steal you blind.
Your heart, your men.
Finger down their throat.
Extensions in their hair.
When nothings real.
Nothings fair.
Have you ever lost something u wanted so bad?
Missed something that you've never had?
I scream, I yell..
I bitch && swear.
I pretend I don't.
But I'll always care.
Nothing's realistic.
Society is cold.
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I've gotten into another writing mood and my writing always sucks but i posted anyway.<3 ( Read more... )

head aches suck<3

so everythings okay, theyre goin to try a surgery through my belly button, and hopefully it all goes good and i have a life and future :) only bad thing is i may have to take a shot that makes me go through menopause for 6 months after the belly button surgery goin to my uterus and ovaries, but hey its only 6 months and its NOT a hysterectomy so ( Read more... )

So I'm back from new york, I forgot to update..but yeah...Grandpa is dying slowly, family is a mess, I'm stressing out, and I'm sick of this place!! I move around the 23rd of this month, i think it will work, or atleast I hope so...is it normal to wanna kill ur boyfriend every now and then? ...lol he and I fight...we fight ALOT~~!!! but that doesnt ( Read more... )

so i woke up to an emergency call from my gynocologist...saying I HAD to come in today at 2:30 for a emergency discussion, she wuldnt give details over the phone..I'm guessing the 9 pieces the cut off my cervix proved the cancer spread therfore now they may have to take things out of me...I'm so scared to go in there today..I'm nervous and I still ( Read more... )

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Ahh I'm so bored..im in a letzs get a piercing mood..or two..haha grr Im really pissed that I culdnt get my hip piercings when I was in new york last week..I wanted them but the doctor said to wait til after surgery...so I hav to get them next visit! E veryone thinks im crazy when I say a hip surface piercing..I guess because they're not seen often ( Read more... )

Let me be the one to breathe this tyme..We're all kandy-koated on the outside. A dream without a wish, a smile without a price, what about manipulation! Smothered in deceit, these scars will eventually fade, but for now I'll take a deep breath and ponder the past.  The world is just too typikal, My will is just too strong. I changed for the better ( Read more... )