i feel good as of now. not everything in my life is awesome but somehow this time i have been able to not slip into my usual boo hoo self. at least not to the world, maybe to my best friend and boyfriend.:) they take so much crap. thats why i love em ( Read more... )

so i was told i was suppose to update. so this is me updating. not alot has happened in my life. im still happy. i still have moments. dont we all. and i feel bad for friends who are going through hard times. there are quite a few of em. isnt it weird how life throws crap in handfuls. it usually doesnt come in bits and pieces. i dont know if it is ( Read more... )

can i just say that i have amazing people in my life. so life sucked yesterday. but by the end of the night i was feeling much better. because of all the awesome people who care about me and are willing to go out of their way to make me happy. THANK YOU TO THOSE PEOPLE. i love you all more than i can express ( Read more... )

this shouldnt hurt so bad but it does.

what an amazing day. up until about three hours ok it was an ok day. now it is an awesome day. i got some stuff done that needed to be done and did some stuff that didnt need to be done but was sure fun doing:) im looking forward to life. im looking forward to the changes in my life and learning about myself in the process. i sound so deep. im ( Read more... )

sigh....(in the good way)

so im torn between two very different emotions. on one hand, things are going awesomely in one part of my life where on the other i feel so not in control and that scares me. dont get me wrong, im usually not a controling person. but i think its because the situation involves emotions, mostly emotions owned by people i care about. i dont like not ( Read more... )

so my parents are leaving for a couple days. i am way looking forward to this because at times, lets face it, we dont get along. and if not for the fact that im poor, i would move out in a second. so i am looking forward to the next couple days with enthusiasm and much antisipation. and i found out some news on sunday that was a relief. i knew it ( Read more... )

so today is easter. sweet. i didnt get to color eggs this year however which im not to happy with. im way into traditions but as i have grown up, my parents think i dont need to do that kinda stuff anymore. boy are they wrong. so i am trying to bring back the old traditions. such as carving pumpkins, getting a REAL christmas tree, coloring eggs, ( Read more... )

another day. it was a good day. its amazing how much longer the day seems when you get up early. i worked till 11 then went and picked up alex. my day was then spent hanging with friends. had a rousing game of trivial pursuit with michael, crashed target with jef, took alex home around 9, then cruised with katie in her awesome new car. its sweet ( Read more... )