i owe a couple people apologies for tonight...
life was just at it's lowpoint and i didn't want to talk/be around people.

well.
i have power back. finally. after four fucking days.
i have power.
i actually got it back three days ago. thank god.
but...it was kind of nice sleeping next to the fire every night. and not having the computer or tv.
and it was amazing how our neighborhood came together.
but, the only thing i hated was how things with dave went over those few days.
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i really just can't stand anyone right now.
not even myself.

i want to punch someone. something.
i want to scream. but i can't scream. i can't even fucking scream.
i want to cry. i can't cry. crying is for babies and i'm almost an adult now. i shouldn't cry.
i want  to just explode. i can't even explain in words.
why.
why do i feel like this?
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i want it to be taken into consideration that i'm really angry while i'm writing this. just let that be known.

i know "me" better than anyone else in this entire world. i know who i am, i know what i think, i know what i feel and unless i describe that to someone in perfect detail, they're not going to know what it is i am/thinking/feeling/doing. ( Read more... )

you trained these lips when they were champs
and now they're itching for a comeback
so come back
its a shame that your claim to fame hangs on someone else's name
so come back.

my life in the past few days.
-i got brained twice by dave and john.
-i got questioned by the cops...at 10 pm at a random playground with dave.
-i love dave.
-i miss my friends.
-i ( Read more... )

im not gonna lie.

i'm in a sad mood today.

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i just miss a lot of people right now.

so whats up.
nothing much here, ya know, incase you were wondering.
which i'm sure you weren't. since NO ONE reads this anymore.
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oh well. i'll write for me.
things are going really, really well with dave.
i never knew i could love someone this much. it's craziness. and the more we talk, the more we have in common.
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loosen up my buttons bababbababyyyyyyyyyyy ( Read more... )

i love him so much it hurts.

so these past few days have gone by in a huge blur.
i'm not really sure how i feel about anything anymore.

i have/had the flu. yesterday i was just completely out of it. i slept from 9 am (when i got home from school) to 5 pm. then i went to bed 10 pm and i woke up at 10 am this morning. and i'm still exhausted.
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