holly died today.
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INSTRUCTIONS:
write ten statements,
intended to different people.
never tell which one is to who

things you've always wanted to tell people.

1.) I didn't think I'd ever love someone as much as I love you. And yes, I mean love. Because that's what it is. I miss you when I don't see you for a day. I realize I'm maybe spoiled in that I see you everyday. ( Read more... )

my life is, as of right now, a living hell.
and you want to know something? i have all of five people in my life that actually care about me.
angelica. rachel. dave. michelle. margaret.
they're the only five people that seem to understand how much i'm hurting now.
i just wanted this to be the best year yet.
but so far...it's not.
and to add on top of it ( Read more... )

it's late. 
i'm not tired. i slept til 1 today. i went to bed at midnight.
that equals thirteen hours of sleep.
i love sleep.

i never update anymore. i think it's cause i only used to update when i was sad or angry and i'm not really either anymore.
i hung out with dave today.
i love him so much, it hurts. i hadn't seen him for three hours and i was ( Read more... )

He's the only thing that makes sense anymore.
The only place I feel completely happy and safe is in his arms.
Any other time?
I feel like the world is spinning out of control and I just can't handle it anymore.
I don't know where I'd be right now without him.
And I don't know if thats a good thing or not...

The Truth Can Be FunQuick BasicsName::Sarah Age::17 Location::NY Down to the good stuff!What are some of your goals in life?:to be a counsler/therapist for kids and teens. to be a mother. to get married. Do you actually have a list written out like in A Walk To Remember?:no. How many have you actually accomplished so far?:not a lot, let me tell you ( Read more... )

i'm so tired.
and i'm sick.
and i'm sad.
and i fucking just want to give up right now.

i called rachel sobbing tonight. i just needed someone to talk to.
i had been wandering around outside for an hour and a half just crying.
so i called rachel, knowing she's about the only one that cares.
and i cried to her for a little bit until i met up with dave.
and ( Read more... )

ugh i'm so bored.
today has been SO boring, its crazy.
i woke up around 12ish. 12:12 to be exact. lol.
i went online and downloaded a few songs.
i drove the momo to dash's. sat in the parking lot with my brother singing and headbanging to "heaven is a place on earth".
awesome, i know.
now i'm here.
angelica is coming over around 7 to watch meet the press ( Read more... )

i miss him so much i started crying while i was talking to him on the phone.
i HATE being so fucking dependent on someone.
but i am. and there's no going back now.
yeah, i'm going end up hurt.
hopefully, later rather than sooner.
i just love him.
END OF THE MOTHERFUCKING STORY.

is it bad that i don't know if i believe in god or not?
probably. i should have some sort of beliefs.
(this isn't random. i was talking to colleen about religion tonight)
i'm not sure if i believe in god or not. i'm more inclined to say i don't.
it almost doesn't seem fesible. there's some god, up in heaven, watching over us.
we were planned out? we ( Read more... )