Do you know what I'm really fucking sick of?
Being the one who ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS makes the plans.
I feel like a stalker or something.
It's just fucking ridiculous and I'm pretty damn tired of it.
I don't want to be the one always calling, the one always "checking up".
Fuck that.

I had a really long talk with Dave today about people and this kind of ( Read more... )

sup crackers.
no one reads this anymore. that's okay. when i'm bored i go back and look at it.
so it's for meeeee. yay.

today was fun.
last night was the sleepover at ray's.
uber fun.
today i slept for four hours because i was dying.
ya know.
then i took angelica out to dinner! i was so happy to see her, it was crazy.
then we WALKED to rachel's. that was ( Read more... )

We survived our first fight.
*sigh of relief*
Thank GOD.
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I have been so busy, it's crazy. I'm never, ever home.
And I love it.
Uhm, I don't remember what happened before yesterday. So we'll start there.
The parents and brothers went out for the day to Canada...so....I snuck Dave ( Read more... )

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sorry my updates have been so shitty lately. 
i'm just never have time anymore (i finally have a life!) and i don't get home until 11-11:30 everynight.
and by then i'm just too tired to even type something comprehendable.
oh well. i'll update on my life from the past week now.

the rumors are true. i am, in fact, going out with dave eddy.
shocking, i ( Read more... )

August 27, 2006
11:40 pm

Yo Life,
I'm confused. Again. I assume I'll live the rest of my life confused.
It kind of sucks. But whatev.
I'm happy. I guess. Not totally happy. But happy, nonetheless.
Irony is making me wonder.
god makes me wonder.
People make me wonder.
Life, you make me wonder.

Fuck you.

-me.

August 27, 2006
1:30 am

Dear Life,
You're getting less confusing. Thank you.
I talked to Anna Monaghan tonight. She IMed me.
She helped. A lot. She said she's friends with both of us.
And I think I needed to hear something like that.
I got to talk to Angelica tonight. She made me feel better.
I got to see Rachel. I missed her a lot.
I got to see the husband ( Read more... )

August 26, 2006. 
1:22 am

Dear Life,
You confuse me. A lot.
I wish you could just let me be happy with what I have.
Instead if what I don't want to have.
Is it that I'm afraid to let someone love me? Because I'm afraid of getting hurt again.
I do LIKE him. But do I love him?
I must because I say it back to him when he says it to me.
Is it worth the pain I ( Read more... )

Dear Life,
Why are you so confusing?
...Stop it.
Love,
Me.

i'm crying right now.
i can't stop.
and i want to call someone, see someone.
but no one can talk.
angelica is sleeping.
colleen isn't home.
rachel's in hawaii.
anna is doing college stuff.
mitch is hanging out with mike.
and...there's no one else.

my heart hurts.
fksajfskdflj.
i can't deal with this anymore. i really, really can't.