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We shared so much together. Five years …why did you actually make it reach the five year mark and not mention a thing? There’s so much more I wish we could have shared. So much for that post apocalyptic dream of yours. Have you even taken time off from your busy schedule to consider our relationship? I’m waiting… I don’t want to, but I can’t ( Read more... )

I was at Costco... minding my own business and then I saw him. I take a detour to the left trying to avoid him. Here I am thinking I was over him... and I'm not. To my relief it wasn't him, but at that moment I thought I saw him I heard my heart beating faster. My vision getting darker. I can't face him.

We went out dancing last night. It never fails that when we go out Brian buys me a rose. lol Funny because I think flowers are a waste of money... yet the gesture is nice. I appreciate the attention. A gesture from man to women to show one's affection. It works and I do like it... again it never fails ( Read more... )

Brian was pretty upset about the trip I'd taken with the guys. He feels I'm not prioritizing him. In all honestly I'm not. I told him before, I wasn't ready for a relationship and he's the one that kept insisting on it. Okay, he's willing to put up with my mess... I warned him. He knew and had an idea of what he was getting himself into. I did ( Read more... )

I went with the guys Jaymes and Manny White Water Rafting u p in Taos this past weekend. My family was extremely upset.. not to mention Brian was too. What's so wrong with me going on roadtrips with my friends? I swear my family thinks the worst of me. Really, its sad because they don't know me at all. It really frustrates me. We stayed at ( Read more... )

Why am I with him? He's not what I'm looking for. I guess that explains why I'm so mean and aweful to him. That and my apprehension to relationships now. I'm only stringing him along... I have a feeling it's not going to work out anyways. I'm waiting for him to fuck it up. I know he will. He's so silly... which is what I like about him, but he' ( Read more... )

I am so confused. *SIGH* I'm wasting my time. I need to get my shit straight and stop fooling around. I know I missed out my college experience, but really? I've had enough. There's more to life then just going out and drinking on weekends. Urgh. WTF, I'm starting to dislike myself. I need to go back to school. I can't leave mom though...

Listening to 90's gudge only brings memories of him to mind. I like the music... I can't believe I listen willingly to STP, Live, Alice in Chains, Collective Soul... the only one he didn't get me into and I told him it'd be impossible is Metallica ( Read more... )

I finally went to Coachella after over 5 years of wanting to go. Disappointment awaited me since Cindy decided not to go after all. I was asking everyone... anyone who wanted to go with me. I won't go alone. It's not safe?! I put up the wristbands for sale... Very disappointed. Then Jaymes asked why I didn't ask Brian to go with me. Brian the guy I ( Read more... )