I promised an old friend to update this ( Read more... )

Its 2009. Where has the time gone? I have NO idea. But I do know that I have grown up a lot. I am starting to really feel like an adult now who can handle responsibilities. I have grown a lot this past year. The first half was pretty boring but around my 23rd birthday things changed. I left Walgreen’s and went to US BANK only to get fired and have ( Read more... )

Was a nice day. I talked on the phone for a while with Emily and got to catch up. Always a pleasure. Patrick called me tonight. finally. hes been gone 2 whole days now at training. Hes gonna be gone for about a month.. My baby is gone but Im ok without him.. for the time being at least. I have so much goin on its hard to sit down and really miss ( Read more... )

I guess myspace has been taking up most of my internet time. For shame. Time for an update on the ol LJ. Whats new.. hmm. Im on my last term of my first year at PSU. It has been goin good and goin by really fast. I have managed to get As and Bs and get a bad ass GPA. Winter term sucked but I made it without pulling out all my hair. Im really glad I ( Read more... )

I am thankful for the long, difficult, tear-filled conversations I had with my mom this last week. I finally got all the shit off my chest Ive been holdin in since I was a kid. It was really refreshing to hear her understanding and nonjudgmental responses. I didn't think I would ever be able to tell her I was not a Christian anymore, and that I was ( Read more... )

My mom brought me up to conform. Follow the rules and dont question them. Rules that dont always make sense. Being religious doesn't help, either. My mom is so stuck in her beliefs she cannot even see the hypocrisies or spot the nonsense. I have always had a rebellious spirit, though. I always questioned it and was pissed off that she was holding ( Read more... )

Im stayin up waitin to hear from my boo..oh well. I think I need to journalize more..Im watching way too much bjork on youtube. She is beautiful/erotic/weird/cute/amazing... I just love her. her voice is so great. It makes me feel so good. I dont know why I dont just go to sleep. Sleep is good. I remember when I use to get a lot of it. Now my mind ( Read more... )

Through some tears I realized how much I was hurting myself. It finally hit me like BOOM. epiphany. I have been waisting all this emotion on a person who doesn't want it. In fact, he would rather just not deal with it at all. Not wanting all this emotion and feelings and clingyness. I don't really want to smother him.. but I get very obsessive ( Read more... )

So Patrick came home for leave. That was about two weeks ago.. I have been really busy with finals and school stuff. But LEAVE was so much fun. Patrick came home on a Thursday nite. His mom picked me up from school and we went to her house to wait for his call. I was throwin Max his ball and talkin to his mom and Patrick called at 6 pm on the dot. ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since I have said anything on here. I feel busy with school and work and life. But I do need to get these feelings out someplace ( Read more... )