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Nothing is going the way I planned.  Nothing I had imagined is coming true, and slowly I am sinking further.  I want it all to be over; I want everything to finally be done.  I'm stressed to a point that scares me sometimes; I've done, thought, or said things that I would never expect from myself.  If I could be done with the things I feel done ( Read more... )

I feel so busy right now, like I don't have enough time to get everything done.  The thing is, I guess I really could, if I just never stopped working.  I also feel like I've let a lot of people down by not getting my shit together.  I guess I do have a lot to do, so I'm not crazy, but it is really much more than everyone else?  I always feel like ( Read more... )

So midterms are finally over.  I don't know any grades yet, but everything was alright excluding english.  We'll see how that all goes.  School is such as waste of time.  I could really use those 8 hours each day sometimes ( Read more... )

I never finished my last entry, and I never took the time to finish it.  For some reason, it really got to me and I thought often about coming back and finishing it.  For the past few days, I haven't slept well, and have been waking up a couple times a night.  I have also been having very odd dreams typically pertaining to things I am doing, things ( Read more... )

Today we had an advisory homeroom (that I got to miss :-) ) but it had something to do with wishing for peace or something.  What good is that going to do?  I wish for piece in the world.  I wish for peace in Iraq.  Well contragulations, I wish for a piece of cake.  I am sick of all this bullshit I have to do.  High school irritates me so much, but ( Read more... )

I got my wisdom teeth out on Thursday, which really sucked.  It had to be done, which is why I did it over break, but break hasn't been great because of it.  It wasn't that bad actually, and I'm not in a lot of pain, but still, I can't do anything.  There's only 2 days left, one being New Year's Eve, which is supposed to be a huge party day, but I ( Read more... )

I hate politics.  I'm not talking about Bush, I hate this whole social political things.  I guess its like government, where people put people in high positions for doing favors for them, and stuff like this.  I'm assuming that this has been going on for years, but I've never noticed it before.  This year suddenly I realize how corrupt everything I ( Read more... )

I hate this feeling.  I hate regret.  I always do it to myself.  No matter how many times I say I'll go for everything and live every day like it's my last, I never do.  But I know there would be no benefit.  I guess its fair, but I need oppurtunities too.  Sometimes I wish I had just a heart, or just a brain, not both.  They say two very different ( Read more... )

Today was pretty awesome.  School was bullshit, I got all A's on my report card, which I haven't done since 8th grade.  I went to Sam Ash with Dan and Ricketts, and it was awesome.   We got totally lost, we ended up at a hospital, and Dan ran a red light.  Hahahahaha.... nothing like driving through Edison at night ( Read more... )