i used to think that i was slowly fading away. like people would gradually forget about me and i would eventually just dissapear and would emerse myself in work and art. it seems now that this theory of mine was slightly off. the way it appears now is that most of the people around me are slowly fading away. i dont get to hang out with many of ( Read more... )

i hate feeling like the parent, but knowing my views will never change. i know life doesnt come easy but i feel like it isnt even coming for me. i hate knowing what i want, watching it walk all around me, and never reaching out, then hating myself for not reaching out. then i do it all over again. i hate not knowing what i am going to do with ( Read more... )

well, a few things i feel i should say. my friends have been lately seeming like a blessing or a curse. i dont hang out with many people right now for some reason, its usually matt, adam, or corey. havent kept in touch with many. the ones who curse me can go get fucked for all i care, not to say i dont still care about them, but if you make a ( Read more... )

Fair warning... this is going to be a rant and may not flow as well as past entries. may not even make sense to you at times. it plagues me to think of all the moral injustices that go on in our everyday lives during these times. to think that people display thier racism and fascist views. the idea that people will kiss and tell to a person ( Read more... )

I watched a movie the other day that was based on a game of riddles, so now i am on a riddle kick. so here is my riddle for today, answer if you can and if you have any for me please feel free to pose it to me. "if you break me, i will not stop working. if you touch me, i may be snared. if you lose me, nothing will matter. what am i?"

rough night tonight. me, vinny, john boy, and crazy matt went to the exxon on greenbrier and kempsville to get some drinks. when we had our drinks we sat outside and talked about different stuff like politics and so forth. while our discussion was in progress a blue neon pulled up with 3 guys and a girl to get gas. 2 of the guys went inside and ( Read more... )

There comes a time in everyones life that they decide their own standards of living could be better. to change these standards, it takes a few things, starting with will power. once youve decided to change something about yourself it will take courage to and determination to stick to it. unfotunately, the concentration that it takes most often ( Read more... )

i dont want to die lonely.

Too often we accept standards that should most certainly be unacceptable. But we make it a point to blame someone else for all our problems. And it may be true, but in almost all cases, they are the cause; but we are the continuance. if you have a problem, do something about it. complaining has never really solved a problem and worrying never ( Read more... )

this is a song by seal called Love's divine ( Read more... )