realized something the other night. now ive always known this deep down, but for some reason it really hit me the other night. each of us are not really good people at the core. now some try and some come close to succeeding, but there is one thing that will always hold us back. the one thing that has been bothering me for the past few days. i ( Read more... )

recently i have been feeling more and more like i dont fit in here. for some reason it just seems like this isnt the place for me. everything i look for, whether through my own faults or otherwise, i cant seem to find. its a strange feeling when you have it in your head that you arent like or common with anyone you know. although i know i have ( Read more... )

this notes the slow death of my patience. we will begin with the drama... rob got married, i have mixed feelings about that, fuck it, they arent mixed at all, but thats a whole other entry. jesse had a party after rob's wedding. tom got smashed and made a complete ass of himself. i think at least 70% of everything he does is to get attention ( Read more... )

something that occured to me yesterday, but only found the desire to write about it tonight ( Read more... )

i think ive found my role model. and that is robb. i love that guy as deeply as i can without crossing the homosexual boundary. i would love the chance to live with him for a while and see exactly how he lives his life. seems to me like he has all his stuff together, plus we have the same tastes in just about everything except he reads a whole ( Read more... )

To Henry ( Read more... )

my uncle comitted suicide today. hung himself in his garage. his mother found him when she got back from church.

something occured to me today while driving home from school. no matter how dark the say is, if you can get over the clouds, it is just as bright and beautiful as any clear day on the ground. i then related this to my life. there are always things between me and happiness, the art of living is to rise above them. "the sun always shines above ( Read more... )

"to live a life so short and sweet ( Read more... )

im an ugly person. had to get that out of the way. i saw this kid walking through the mall (grassy area in the middle of campus) yesterday, who was for no better way to describe him, a geek. hw looked like one of those guys who has no self esteem, doesnt talk to anyone, takes crap from everyone, and does his best to make sure he doesnt piss ( Read more... )