"And I find it kind of funny ( Read more... )

self pity is a horrible thing to have. but sometimes its hard not to, lately ive felt like my life has had no direction, i still feel that way. i feel ugly. but instead of pissing and moaning about it, i think i just may try to do something about it. its come to me that being depressed only makes it harder for others to be around me, and then ( Read more... )

got bored, started writing again... this is what i came up with, guess ill add this to the book later ( Read more... )

i keep talking to people and seeing that they dont have any time. everytime i ask someone if they have any free time to hang out the answer tends to be no about 85-95% if the time. ive asked 4 people just in one night about time next week, and the survey says.... no time! thats right folks, our lives are wasting away and we are putting our ( Read more... )

question... if you were teminally ill, with no set time left to live, but let's say it was no more than 1-2 years, who, if anyone, would you tell? to what range would you go (i.e. family, friends, strangers)? why have you chosen the people you would tell? and how would your life change, if at all? me, i dont know. i know if i told people they ( Read more... )

what a life! i spend so much time downplaying my life that i never look at what i really have. well, most of what i have is friends, family, peers, co-workers, all worth more than i can imagine. so this entry is to address all those who are the closest to me at the time (if your name is not in here forgive me, submit it for review and maybe it ( Read more... )

the truth is, i cant get over how i feel. i cant get rid of a broken heart, and i cant forget what i know. im tired of being told im such a nice guy and that im going to make some woman very happy one day. i keep hearing this but i have nothing to show for it, i guess its mostly my fault that i havent seen that day. that day will never come for ( Read more... )

i am slowly dying.

all my life ive been had things that others were denied, close family, close friends, a good education, a good neighborhood, stuff like that. sometimes i asked for things that i just couldnt have. no matter how much i felt that i needed it. these things were just were not meant for me. sometimes i feel like true happiness is one of these things ( Read more... )

still cant think of much to say. kinda just here right now. had a conversation tonight that i have been longing to have for a while. glad to get it out in the open. i think i said everything that i was feeling in the best way that i could. and id still give anything to go back and do what i/(we) felt like doing to begin with. i cant change ( Read more... )