ok so maybe i should take my anti-depressant pills. im sooo fucking pissed off right now at the stupidest things. and i made will sad and now im crying and i cant stop and ugh just kill me. i hate that i have to put stupid drugs into my body to make me normal. i hate that i have to depend on them to make me feel better. i just want to go through my ( Read more... )

so i really dont know what i am supposed to do. i have many issues and problems and its just overwhelming and ugh i need help. so here goes my problems

1. jacob talked to me the other day. now im not sure if that was good or bad. i think its good cuz i want us to be friends. just wanna get over everything and be friends again because i enjoy talking ( Read more... )

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i hate when i cry
it makes me feel so stupid and immature
but i hate it even more
when i cry over things
that shouldnt bother me anymore
stupid little things that i should be past
but just cant seem to move over that hurdle
i just wanna curl up in a ball and die

and i know its bad
but i want one...
will knows what im talking about

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so i guess hes mad at me again. because i sent him a message online. he didnt answer. i sent him a text didnt answer. dont know what i did this time. we were fine like a week ago. and now all the sudden he wants nothing to do with me. sometimes i wish we could go back to the way things use to be...but then i dont. im happy with the way something ( Read more... )

hahahhaha
ew
uhhhhhhhh!!!!!
baby dont leave me!
theres a difference between high and drunk
which we are neither!
hahahhahhaha
bdskjfbdslhfbalsgj
i cant walk straight
hold my arm
thiiiiis way
woooooooooooooowwwww!
i have to peeee!
im about to to pee in the grass
ant on a rollercoaster!
vrrrooooom!
you cheat!
your cheating
cheater!
god i love shannon

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ok so just kill me. seriously. i hurt so bad. i think im doomed to be in pain for the rest of my life. im always sad even when i act happy. in the back of my mind im always thinking and im always depressed. i just wanna crawl into my bed and cry and never come out. i just...ugh i cant do this. i dont wanna love anyone anymore. it just hurts me. im ( Read more... )