Somewhat "Friends Only." Comment to be added if you want the juicy stuff!

So it's over. I gave up. I called it quits. I wish I did this months ago, there's no reason I should have put myself through all that suffering because I can honestly say I don't think I learned anything. Just "you don't get second chances" and that love is an illusion.

My life is such a damn failure at this point. I need something to change, soon. The man that I fucking love, whose heart I have broken, has finally come back from Burning Man, and a road trip to the west. He has broken my heart again, his tally ever increasing, I've stopped keeping track. Before he left he said he was going to try to make things ( Read more... )

I know I only use this LJ to vent when I feel like I'm at my lowest lows, but now I really need help ( Read more... )

My core, my every fiber, my being, my soul, every little atom of me and that which makes me, is sullen. I am weighted. I want to die. I ruined the best thing I had and it's too late to repair, and I don't know if I'll ever find anything like it again.

I'm so lost.

battling w/depression

I can't believe this is happening to me again. Hey guys, know what life has taught me? That a good way to get rid of someone is to tell them that you love them.

It's exhausting being a crazy person! So here's a picture post with some fun stuff to put me in a better mood.

( kittens and zombies and other stuff, oh my! )

I'm just posting this for future reference. You don't have to read it. It'd be cool if you did, but it's extremely long and complicated. Somehow I have to write a shorter version of this for a community I'd like to seek help in. Here goes ( Read more... )

Guuuuuhhhhhhhhhh I give up. I'm going to be a crazy old cat lady from now on.

Also, catnip will never get old.