can this last forever?

[hostage_of_hope]

It's day 1 of having the scale in the basement, and the remote that goes to it upstairs, two floors away. So far I think i'm ok not weighing myself. But I have to say that i'm finding it incredibly depressing to have to eat. I laid around yesterday, and just cried and cried. I squandered a perfectly good day with my children being home by literally

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[lovesmonet]

I relate to a lot of what you have said here. Being too broken to function, wanting to not be this way but wanting to be this way at the same time.
I applaud your courage for eating and not getting on the scale. These are great steps. I wish you success on your journey back to health. Take good care.

[hostage_of_hope]

Thank you. That means a lot.

[bookgurrl]

I can relate too. I hate the e/d,but I hate how it feels when I don't have it. I could have written every word in this post. No wisdom, just empathy. It's a hard road back, that's for sure. But I believe you can do it. xoxo

[hostage_of_hope]

Thanks you. Guess time will tell

[hostage_of_hope]

It is sucky. Because you're left feeling like you are never enough and waiting around to be happy instead absorbing the happiness already there.