I am so fucking confused right now. I'm like a person who has spent her entire life looking through foggy lenses and now suddenly sees the world in complete clarity. But it's foreign and strange and exciting and frightening and empowering and joyous and saddening and overwhelming all at once ( Read more... )

I laid back and watched as skaters twirled about on the roof of your car, and I can't stop smiling, it's contagious and it lights me up like the angel on top of a Christmas tree. I smile at work, I smile at home, I smile with my friends, I smile at the sky. I don't know where I am going, and I know it could all be fleeting, but I am enjoying it now ( Read more... )

Everyday I wake up and feel that somehow this current path I am on is very very wrong. And everyday I struggle with the question I have to ask myself - "Am I just lazy and pampered and irresponsible? Would I be dissatisfied with any scenario that did not involve me relaxing and doing whatever I wanted to do at any given moment?" Or is that I am ( Read more... )

I am extremely tired right now and that's absolutely ridiculous given the time and how much I slept last night. However, I was up past six in the morning the night before, so perhaps that has something to do with it. I feel like I could just go to bed now and then actually manage to get something accomplished in the morning for once ( Read more... )

I don't feel like writing a lot right now...but I just wanted to say that Vicodin is my friend. I was in extreme pain from having my bottom two wisdom teeth extracted on Thursday and I finally got brave enough to take a full pill just an hour ago...Ahhh, sweet sweet relief ( Read more... )

I hit a really rough spot on Sunday evening, but I feel I rebounded from it quite nicely and had a good day today. Saturday and early Sunday were also quite nice. I love realizing that there are actually so many things I love and appreciate about being alive. Sometimes I forget that and that's just sad and wrong ( Read more... )

Do you think it's odd for a female to wear glasses her whole life instead of contacts? It seems so very few people these days go the glasses route. I was told by my optometrist today that he thinks I will never ever tolerate contacts and must accept that. After all the trauma to my eyes over the years they are severely out of shape and both my eyes ( Read more... )

I love road-trips. I love discovering and re-discovering over and over again just how amazing and vast this world is. How the entire landscape of the earth can change in just a matter of an hour when you're staring out your window. I feel more a part of something when I change my surroundings, even for a little while ( Read more... )

I am so much better than this shit. I am moving on and doing better things and for the first time I don't need anyone's approval or guidance or support. I know what matters and I know who matters. There is no sense of not being good enough. Because I am better than good enough. I am better than just good. Appreciate what you had, but be assured you ( Read more... )

I am not a big fan of September. The ending of summer seems to signal a return to a lot of things I am not particularly fond of. Cold weather, darker days, wind and rain, various things smelling of spices like cinnamon and nutmeg, and an over-abundance of the color orange. I really don't like the whole harvest-y time feel. I'm not keen on spending ( Read more... )