There is absolutely nothing wrong or perverse about a 23 year old female being overwhelmingly attracted to a 19 year old male, right?? Ahh, what's happening to me! I am usually only attracted to those at least a couple years older than me. Nowadays I look at certain guys and ideas of serious relationships vanish into thin air - I just want to have ( Read more... )

This is not working. This is not a life. As much as the boredom and repetition of it will probably start gnawing away at me a few months after I have begun, I just need some normalcy. The job, the routine, the weekends where I enjoy myself, etc. At least until I figure out what it is that I really want...and if I never do, well, at least I'll be ( Read more... )

I don't know what to say anymore. Things are not good right now, and I am scared, lonely, and frustrated. I do not feel like talking about it, I do not feel like writing about it, and I certainly do not feel like thinking about it, though I really do not have any control over the last option here. Some of these things need to be thought about in ( Read more... )

I really am trying not to get overly concerned right now, but lately the skin on my face has been getting rough and bumpy in spots. I thought maybe it was some sort of post-adolescent acne breakout. But I never had acne problems even when I was the right age for it, so I was doubtful that was the explanation. Suddenly tonight my face began to feel ( Read more... )

My mom had just stated that the jellybeans my father bought in honor of Easter look like "little irons". This caused me to laugh hysterically because every cell in my body desires a good absurdist laugh at this point!

Hmmm...To spend money on tickets, parking, food, and gasoline in order to see the first game of the playoffs in Portland? I don't know if the seats are any good, or if we'll be battling rush-hour traffic all the way down or what time we'll get home or if the Portland fans will heckle us! What should I do? I want to be more spontaneous, but I am ( Read more... )

Because I am not in the slightest way coherent right now and because I have absolutely nothing better to do and because I cannot stop thinking about guys right now I have made a new "Carrie's Top Ten Most Desirable Males" list. Yes, I do re-write this list at least 20000000000000 times a year, but I haven't done it in quite a long while because my ( Read more... )

So I posted a public entry here, and I am not going to make it private just because people who need to get a life can't help but go and whine to all their friends about what they may have read here ( Read more... )

I am so lonely right now that I feel like knocking myself unconscious ( Read more... )

Spring has come early for my emotional state of mind ( Read more... )