Everything has been going ok for me. I had a bad dream the other night and woke up choking John out. I had to take baby Holly to the ER cause she wouldn't stop puking. Poor baby. I think she may be teething. She is so beautiful. More and more everyday she builds personality. She likes to growl at things. It's great ( Read more... )

You fucked up. Not me. It was you the whole time. You made me feel as though I was the most horrible person in the world when all along you were going behind my back. You're a dick. You made me feel bad just to make yourself feel better.

I hope your happy. I hope it was all worth it.

You suck!

I wish things could go back to the way they were. I remember the look that made everything seem ok when everything was closing in on me. I miss your happiness. Your true smile. Our endless conversations of the same shit we've talked about a hundred times before. I miss long car rides filled with music, laughter, long glares and kisses when we ( Read more... )

It's been a while since I've updated. Fuck it. My life is too busy to get on this thing. I keep up on the reading and all because I like to hear a little bit of whats going on in the outside world. I've been getting out alot lately, but it's not the same. I feel like a totally different person. Hell...I am a totally different person. I sure as fuck ( Read more... )

Today my mom had family dinner at her new house over in Cedar Grove. She's not living in it, just renting it out. It has a pool so you know we was up in that motha. Naw not my fat ass. It was cute though. We put Holly in a little bathing suit to get her in the pool, but it was way too cold for her. We had hot dogs and hambugers. Nice big family get ( Read more... )

Did I mention I had staples in my head? Well I do and they hurt like fuck. I'm really bored and haven't been to sleep yet. So far I have boiled some eggs and made brownies. I've fed Holly and am playing Zelda. I'm stuck on this thing and can't do anything else. I'm pissed. I think I might take another Loratab and go to sleep. Nite nite. i mean good

Well, me and John have been getting along better these past couple of days. I left a note in his wallet telling him how much I love him and how it took him growing balls and making me feel bad for me to realize my unappreciative attitude towards him. He is such a great person. I'm just a bitch who always has something to say or bitch about. I like ( Read more... )

Not by choice I should add. But I'm very happy with the outcome. I had to have surgery on my head to get rid of some cysts. So for starters, I have three bald spots on my head. To make matters worse, the nurses who prepped me for surgery decided not to pull out the hair they shaved off my head but instead left it in with all my hair still attached ( Read more... )

I've decided to update seeing how it's been forever. I'm always up on everything else but can't seem to find time or the energy to do this. So here I go ( Read more... )

I find myself thinking about what I would do if anything happened to Holly. I don't know if it is my hormones or what. That maternal instinct in me telling me that if anyone even so much talked to her badly I would just die. I watch Tv and hear the news about how people hurt babies, leave them in dumpsters, abuse, rape, torture, etc. All I can ( Read more... )