Sick today. Home with a bit of a gurgling stomach bug. But not so ill as to pass out and transport through the hours in a fever haze. So in and out of book reading, internet perusing and other low key pastimes. Was on facebook, than searching for the elusive perfect job and then thinking of you, my sweet forgotten LJ. Surprised to remember my ( Read more... )

speaketh the truth

There is this sinking feeling that this failed serial monogamy has led me to an unfortunate end. Almost thirty and yet again a breakup to salve from. And now, oh my, the recognition that I want to build a life with someone that mutually accentuates and betters me and (oh god) with whom to create a family. So this is a bit concerning a revelation ( Read more... )

I linked to this from a heady friend's blog. It if from a NY times list of questions to ask before that 'life-long' commitment of marriage (or something like it) And I can't help but think: wow, I am a long way off from that. Well, I guess first I need to meet someone and date them long enough to care and invest and pose these questions. I do ( Read more... )

i think i made a mistake.

an unbiased third person view

yep, pretty much

It is becoming increasingly difficult to maintain a neutral interest in anything. Things are becoming more melancholy yet border on indifference. Which is cold and distant and removed, as though disengaged from the act of living. No longer amendable to change. Rather like a plastic toy that will persist, unchanged, through the ages ( Read more... )

i miss you... we kissed for the first time after running through forest park. and each time we would kiss after that, my heart was vibrant and everything so vivid, alive, electric. my pulse still quickens ( Read more... )