my monolouge for the drama theme project. our theme is worry ( Read more... )

tomorrow, today will be yesterday.

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i give up so fast. i accept my apathy. so many shadows cast. my sorrow is a sea. ill watch you from afar. and dream of perfect nights. ill pile on the scars. and release this desperate fight. youll smile as im failing. youll watch me lose my grip. behind hearts i am trailing. my fingers slowly slip. i sink away in darkness. and in me you pervade. ( Read more... )

i taught myself how to play this awesome amanda marshall song on guitar. hellza tight. i really love guitar ( Read more... )

this has ben the first weekend in a long time that i never felt like i wasnt doing anything. even now. i had hellza fun. and definite "moments" i want everyone to know how cool it wasbut im way too fucking lazy to type all that shtuff. quick summary ( Read more... )

::big emo sigh::
fatty fucking science paper.
another late night.
tomorrow wont be better.
i hate how i hurt.
ill wear my sunglasses at night.
maybe for a while ill stop feeling.
maybe i wont sleep and i wont dream.
i hate waking up to the same thing.
i want to wake up next to you.
at least itll be something new.
can you hold me?
id really like

my mom hates me. honestly. and so does my stepdad. and so does my brother. and so do i. and i wouldnt be surprised if my dad did too. i didnt think i could hate myself anymore than i already did. but today in the car my mom showed me i was wrong. why am i here? why do i waste my life being sad? i want to make my mom hurt like i do. my entire family ( Read more... )

i cant believe its only tuesday. i cant believe i still have homework. i cant believe there is another five months of school. i cant believe its only tuesday ( Read more... )

i was supposed to babysit at 6. the people never came home. i sat outside for an hour. then walked next door and asked to use their phone to call my mom. she came and picked me up. i wasted an hour of my night sitting in the cold. time i could have spent doing homework, or being happy, or being warm, or eating, or sleeping, or talking to friends. ( Read more... )