that four months later I still cry myself to sleep over the life we built and the future you walked away from ( Read more... )

Got this email from my mom. Didnt stop laughing for a good five minutes ( Read more... )

finally went out last night. dinner with heather and andrew foster, then a movie with Brian and Colby.

now i gotta go pull 2 and 1/2 hours of dance, acting, and vocal rehearsal out of my butt for 20 kids.

thank God I was designed for such tasks. Jamba Juice here I come.

i have found this book called "Pregnancy Sucks" that essentially outlines all the dumb things about being pregnant. the most interesting aspect that i wholly agree with is the concept of food aversion and cravings as a result of 24/7 morning sickness ( Read more... )

and finally able to eat lunch. long day. very productive. 9 units enrolled. certificate of clearance for california state credential completed, stalking professors has already resulted in one grade change to A. Now one voice student and five hours of class ( Read more... )

stop caring so much.
let go.
rely on the kindness of true friends.
curl up in your ball and suck it up chief.
Life on that level is not meant for you right now.

I've started reading the New Testament all over again. God has so much to say about times like these. I rest in Him today. No more tears.

this was the pep talk received from mom and thus far it is working. The important thing to understand through all the sickness, the lonliness, and the frustration in creating a whole new life all over again is that no matter how much advice people give me, the kid is fine. The concern is me. Kids take what they need first and I get stuck with ( Read more... )

I've been living out of a suitcase for almost a month. I can now finally settle into my normal daily rythem again. Disneyland with my in laws and niece was a blast. I allowed myself for two whole days to forget about all the crazy stuff that makes me anxious back here in real life zone to go away. As a result I feel better about myself, got my ( Read more... )

I am Thine Oh Lord I have heard Your voice and it told Your love to me ( Read more... )

Today is another one of those days with weak knees and an even weaker stomach ( Read more... )