so its finally fucking summer. bout damn time. life might get better. the first few days r... arite i suppose. though a woman couldnt come sooner. lyss got her lisence now so thats good. i can go out to my sisters house and chill with her now so thats nice. my cousin records a cd tomorrow so that should go good. shes been pissin me the fuck off ( Read more... )

so life. i felt rather depressed today. thank god for friends man. they make shit easyer. lonliness is a cunt. i want a girlfriend so goddamn badly. idk weather its to be loved or to make my life somwat significant b/c i feel like i hav nothing. not a goddamn fuckin thing. i go to school i go home i go out.. its the same shit. only i wouldnt give a ( Read more... )

so yea life is shitty. i feel overwhelmed(fuck spellin) and all kinds of shit feeling. im unsur of my future b/c wat i thought i wanted to do has flaws and thank god my sis(christina) told me bout them. i still havnt found anyone and the person i do like(thank god ive settled on 1 person finally... kinda) probly either doesnt like me, says shit ( Read more... )

ST.PATTYS WAS ILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!

so the song the theft by atreyu reflects my mood pretty well. "leave him numb, leave him crushed." pretty much how i feel. parents don help either. they dont understand exactly wat sympathy and understanding is. also don kno wat i mean by " IM FUCKING DEPRESSED! "... eh. idk. fuck everyone

so much weight on my shoulders. this run of bad luick needs to end

so yea. i think god is out to get me. first my sister loses half her fuckin iq... i get sick for a week... then chris' brother pass' away. wtf man bad shit is all fuckin around me. startin to piss me off. i wanna break from this shit. hav som happy memorys ya kno. be cured, get a gf, hav every1 in my family calm the fuck down wit everything. idk. ( Read more... )

2 minutes past. bein sick is a pain in the dick.. though that nurse did look rather sexy

the house across the street went ablaze yesterday. the windows r boarded up and the shit looks haunted. idky i just felt like posting that. ppl hav been drivin by takin pics and shit. funny shit.

lifes random. filled wit emotions and nothing. i hate lonliness. theres to much of it. and ive been lonely for like a yr now. its startin to get to me. wat makes matters worse is i like som1 who i highly doubt likes me bak. shes ablsolutely fuckin beautiful and has has an awsom personallity to bak it up.. shes everything i want in a woman. the ( Read more... )