Im in such a fucking terrible mood. im fucking tired of people. i dont think i have gone one moment after 4pm today and not been pissed off. Brad had to cancel band practice again. The second fucking day in a row. Music is all i have and people are fucking robbing me of it and i really dont appreciate that. My job title should be changed from " ( Read more... )

I looked down at my phone and saw that i had a voicemail. It was far to early to be anything good and i kinda figured when i started making plans that they would all be in vain. Anyways so no Renee this weekend she has things to do for school. I'll see her next weekend and all so everything will be ok. Unless of course life decides to drop a bamb ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning early just so i could for once make it to school on time. Alas, i have no shirt for school so again i sat out. No big deal i went to the doctors office and got an excuse. Took every bit of 7 hours to be seen , but i finally did now i have some prescription medicine to kill off these damn sinus headaches. I love high school ( Read more... )

Im packing up this weekend and heading out to monroe. Im staying with renee for a few days , i need a break from here. from the people in this town, the drama, the idiots. Maybe this trip will do me some good. I miss renee' and i need a break. There im killing two birds with one stone or maybe one car? whatever i still think i will feel better just ( Read more... )

I stopped by my moms house to check up on her and pick up some old pics of me and renee' and some of my friends, last night after practice. The door was unlocked which is not a usual a occurance. She was laying on the couch half of her on the floor the other on the couch, i freeked i thought she was dead ,tears just ran off my face. i didnt know ( Read more... )

Today was thouroughly uneventful. I drove around looking for a job and wasted like $15 in gas. I spent all last night talking to Renee' while she was toasted. It was to say the least delightful. These whole plans we are making are coming together nicely , mostly because we arent making plans really everything is gunna kinda be spur of the moment ( Read more... )

So I finally quit my job today. It felt so nice. I went in and my manager asked me why i wasnt taking her daughter to prom. Well because Renee' have had plans to go for quite some time, Longer than i have been working at subway. Anyways blah blah blah she told me i needed to date her daughter in this demanding voice. i just laughed and said ( Read more... )

i skipped third hour to come home and get some cereal. woo. such a rebel. well im off i have to make it back before the bell.

today i finally realized just how fucking worthless my existance is. i realized just how fucking little my family cares. you know soo much shit goes wrong for me i sometimes wonder if im just making it all up in my head or maybe people get their kicks out of seeing me feel worthless. Spencer quit the band, sucks ass ,but brads back to guitar so its ( Read more... )

Bah horseshit i feel like i got hit by a damn truck. We cancelled band practice today. FUCK FUCK FUCK thats the only thing i look forward to eact day is just the next time we get together. Last night i was supposed to pay chance over at Baton rouge high , but i forgot my cell at hom eand couldnt call him to come pick up the money. Im sure he is ( Read more... )