Damn it, I need to learn Russian and Russian etiquitte. Danni's family speaks Russian in the house, its cruel... And I made the mistake of wearing my hat (the ugly one) to the dinner table, even though only me and Danni were sitting there, which appareantly is not a koscher (damn it Danni, you Jew, you've got me saying it now) thing to do. Danni's ( Read more... )

Any of you PRICKS MOVE, AND I'll EXECUTE EVERY MOTHER FUCKING LAST ONE OF YOU!

I'm in a great mood. Starving. But in a great mood. I need a job... Been looking online, tomorrow I leave the home and look for a job outside of my computer. Besides that, not much. Got back with Danni, hopefully for good this time. Anyhow, I'm out.

Later Mother

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How can something so right turn out so wrong. I feel so horrible. I've hurt someone thats very dear. And its all I've done... and its all I'll keep doing. I'm about to have a breakdown. I can feel it... I'm already screaming inside, I'm just waiting for it to come out... For me to take it out on more people. Maybe if I took it out on strangers I ( Read more... )

I hate thi. I hate this... I fucking hate this. I don't want to care, why do I bother caring, it does nothing, nothing! GOD FUCKING DAMN IT ALL TO FUCKING HELL. SHIT FOR BREAKFAST EATING ASS RAPPING CUM SUCKING BUNNY FUCKING NO GOOD PIECE OF SHIT CUNT GOD THAT HATES ME. I can't be happy. Its impossible. NOTHING is good enough. I'm not good enough. ( Read more... )

tired of even getting out of bed... I think I drank too much last nite... I didn't even get drunk enough to pass out, I just had a pretty good buzz... that sucks... why doI bother getting out of bed anymore at all.

Eyes wide open. I think I finally understand what made Eyes Wide Shut a great film. You realize you've finally woken up.. thats what that is about. I'm awake now... no more dream.

I know I was dreaming. I know that I'm about to wake up. I know that I can't do anything... I can't hold on to the dream, can't stay asleep, can't stay in it. I know its slipping away, because it has its familiarity and its comfort already somewhere else. Why should I bother dreaming anymore... I'm just going to wake up eventually. I feel like I'm ( Read more... )

All I've been doing in my free time... FFXI.... well... that and talking to, seeing, hanging out with Dani. Shes awesome, makes my heart flutter. She needs FFXI too... Just thought I would update since I'm not playing FFXI... its amazing, the Server isn't down and I'm not playing.

Its funny.... watching my mind at work. I see how it works, what it wants, and what its doing. Like watching something being built, ya know its going to be a building, know how many stories its going to have, where the windows will be, that people will eventually be inside. But it doesn't mean you need the building, doesn't mean that you want it to ( Read more... )