my stomach is in knots. i couldnt sleep last night. i didnt realize that he still cared so much. i knew he was graduating...but i didnt know why he joined. or what got him through each day. but now i do ( Read more... )

I really hate you. Its kinda funny. I get you out of my head, but I can't get the images of them out of my head. Some people ask if I will ever speak to you ever again, and I say no, never again, never if my life depended on it. Even if you mom dies in the next week, I will not speak to you, I don't care. You have no respect. No idea what life is. ( Read more... )

I haven't been on here in years. I just read an old entry ( Read more... )

I hate you in every single way. I just wish I could get you out of my head. I love life; and I hate your fucking guts. One day you will realize what you have done. And if you never do, well then you are truely fucked up even more than I could imagine ( Read more... )

I don't want to leave rome. people know how to live here. they enjoy life. i do not want to go back to the states. 19 more days :(

I think I just became really depressed...like in a matter of seconds. i hate being jealous....i am probably over reacting over nothing. i am such a stupid girl. i need to forget about it. why the hell am i so jealous, he should be jealous of me having a good time..

I'm really glad I'm here. I'm really happy I am getting to experience all this. I wish I could stay here or travel more. Which I plan on doing. I hope everyone gets to travel a lot before settling down. It makes me mad when people never leave their tri-state area and end up in the same place they were born, without experiencing other cultures. You ( Read more... )

Yes I am in Rome. Yes I live in an apartment. Yes I love the people in the program. Yes I miss America-slightly. Yes the buses here are f'd up. Yes it is hard to understand the language, but I am catching on quickly. Yes I have a lot of work to do. Yes this is the experience of my life. Yes my luggage got lost in Newark and didnt recieve it until 5 ( Read more... )

I am officially a jr in college. holy shit! i can not belive it. And in 9 days I leave for Rome. Holy shit. This is surreal. I dont want time to pass. I want to enjoy it. I want to live it strong. I want to have a great time.

Today is me and matts 3 year anniversary. can u believe it....crazy. I love him to death. i think it is time. i leave in a week and 4 days.....i dont know what i am going to do without him there by my side at all times. im scerrrrrred. we ate coldstone today as our "celebrations", it was fun. i have to get out of the habbit of eating coldstone... ( Read more... )