I stole this from Theresa

1. What does your LJ name mean?:
that I know I'm fabulous and I dont need anyone else to tell me that I am. Im the SHIT minus the SH...but really Im self-conscious...a paradox of sorts

2. Elaborate on your default photo:
Its mos def in blackface...I stole it from this girl that I kinda know. It actually is really symbolic but ( Read more... )

So after three months i am RESURRECTING my LJ! YAY! I know you all missed me! Sooooo...to recap with a quickness ( Read more... )

Lets recap...this week was pretty crazy. I had two tests on Friday, one in Accounting and the other in National Govt in the U.S. Both went well I think. I've been going to all my classes since the semester started and I'm pretty proud of myself. I know going to class is sort of expected, but last semester I was definitely not into it so I'm proud ( Read more... )

This month, I have decided, will be dedicated to ME and only ME! I am going to do everything I can to make myself happy! Im going to love myself and embrace this time alone. I will NOT be pressed for anyone but myself. I will NOT act on carnal impulses or desires. I will NOT compromise my happiness for anyone else, except for Jesus lol Im going to ( Read more... )

Ok, so these past couple days I've been fairly happy with the route my life is taking. Devon and I broke up...for real this time. But we are on good terms and I still love him very much and he still loves me very much but I think the best thing right now is for us to do our own things so maybe in the future we can come back together again. I'm not ( Read more... )

I'm here. In my room. And i'm crying. Again. My life seems as if it thrives upon this endless cycle of drastic highs and drastic lows. There is never an in between. Yesterday I was at a drastic high. 10 fucking minutes ago I was on a drastic high! And now I'm low...so very low. And I'm crying, again. And its 1:18 in the morning and I have no one to ( Read more... )

"I love this melancholic dance we do...in and out and in and out again. Its amusing to stare myself in the mirror only to see you staring back at me." I am in this body and I need to love it. I am beautiful and perfect and wonderful. I am fabulous in every way. And NO ONE needs to tell me that because I know ( Read more... )

Your timing was absolutely perfect.

And then the big ol' crocodile tears came tumbling down ( Read more... )

Im sitting here, in my room, in the dark, and I can feel the tears slowly rolling down my cheeks. I dont get it. I do nothing but understand. Im there for people. Im a great friend. Im a great girlfriend. Why cant I just get the same in return? I feel like Marcella Gauthier-Bosch. "Its a lot easier to be tough when you cant be reached". I dont ( Read more... )