happy new year eh? i dont have a boyfriend anymore, and my boss's last day was today. i know that doesnt seem like a big deal to most people but this lady has been a part of my life for 3 years and she was the one thing on my side at that place. her boss (ceo's daughter) hates me and told our new supervisor in so many words that im a slacker. not ( Read more... )

i miss him sososososo much. i thought it would get easier as time went on, but its only gotten more difficult. the farther i am from him the farther i feel from us. the more time that passes, the more time i think this will never work out because too much time has gone by to try again. i am one with the finalities. is that a word? no? whatever. i ( Read more... )

things are getting increasingly difficult with scotty and i. its always something. even when its stuff he does, it somehow gets turned around on me and my relationship with rene. im not sure what i can say or do to make him realize that i love being with him and have no intentions on starting things back up with rene. i already told rene months ago ( Read more... )

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fuck it. im just gonna move to australia. live with the kangas and wallabies and sit on the beach while scotty surfs and possibly gets eaten by a shark. haha.

last night i exploded at scotty. he woke up at 3ish and pretty much left without saying much to me and has yet to come back and he works at 9. i may have screwed up big time. i know i can be irrationally angry sometimes, and i have tried my hardest to control it and i apologized for it. i tried explaining why i got so angry with him and how i was ( Read more... )

i guess its been a month since my last update which means its time i do it again...things have still been rather swell. the occasional arguement with scotty boy but nothing major. its coming up on the third month and im not sick of him yet. thats a good sign right? i got to hang with tiff a few times in the past few weeks which is pretty awesome ( Read more... )

lots of hanging with scotty occured this weekend. friday i slept most of the night except the hour that he came over when he was on a break from work. he just wanted to lie with me. it was cute. saturday we went to one of his friend/ex coworkers wedding. i met most of his friends and stuff on thursday at the pre wedding barbecue but i got to meet a ( Read more... )

so ive moved into the new place. its alright. i mean...its just a temp so i cant be too picky, right? im within walking distance of the cavern which means ive been hanging with scotty a lot which means ive gotten like ZERO sleep. a bartenders schedule sucks. its killing me! last night rene and i got in this ridiculous fight. it was mostly his fault ( Read more... )

i explained to him that things were just not working and i have tried so hard to keep it going and if we kept forcing it to happen that we might not be able to maintain a friendship or the possibility of a future. i have this feeling he wanted me to be the one to end it so once again im the bad guy. ive already established that role in our ( Read more... )