i think we are done again. i really tried this time around. i did. hopefully he knows that. it still hurts though.

im watching this celeb rehab special thing hosted by dr drew. hes so hot. seriously. silver fox, much? im listening to keane- a bad dream. its the song at the end of the ep of scrubs where nurse roberts dies and carla says goodbye. that scene makes me cry everytime. hmm so what to update about? well i guess ive been a bad friend lately. its not ( Read more... )

sex. sex makes everything breezy! i think im majorly pmsing right now. ha.

time for my annual update. things are ok i suppose. if you consider the fact that i hate my job, am usually broke, and fighting all the time with rene. i am doing excel spreadsheets for provider enrollment right now and i already know how to do what it is im doing. this means that im bored already and ive worked in that dept for a total of an hr ( Read more... )

RULES ( Read more... )

renes gotten into this adorable routine of waking me up in the morning with these inane habits when i spend the night...such as shaking his hair in my face, tickling my feet, pulling the blanket entirely off of me, or saying 'i wuv you biscuits' and expecting me to reply with 'i wuv you gravy'. did i say adorable? i mean annoying. adorabley ( Read more... )

life is sailing along on this placid sea, and i gotta tell ya....its kind of scaring me. im so used to the calm before the storm that i am afraid its just setting me up for something horrible about to occur. god im such a pessimist. im trying to make my own stomach flip or something. i should just enjoy it right? im trying im trying ( Read more... )

updates updates updates...let us see ( Read more... )

i need a vacation. i have over 40 hours of personal time and almost 70 of vacation that i need to use. noli wont be in seattle til like august and wont be settled in til like....oct or nov. i really need a vacation NOW. i havent had one since last october and i just went to austin for a week. so...im thinking of just saying eff bills/rent for once ( Read more... )

i miss him. we hang out and stuff and we goof around like normal and talk all the time, but....theres still that tension. that we both want to be with each other, but we know we cant be tension. i spent the night at his place on friday and i slept in his room and he slept in the living room. it was weird. i heard him come in in the middle of the ( Read more... )