When it happens, it's like banging my head against a wall, and I'm too stupid to stop.

It's not so simple that you can just say, "I'm happy," or "I'm miserable." Some things are wonderful and when you think about them you can't do anything but smile, while others make you feel like absolute shit. I'm just doing what I can to try and take some of the lean off of the miserable side of the scales. I may not like some of the things I'm ( Read more... )

Sometimes the way things work (or don't) is really frustrating and confusing. What can you do though, except to suck it up and push on through into the better times ( Read more... )

Things are good. Other things are bad. It's always the same with me. I think I'm getting to be pretty uninteresting. Oh well. I've pretty much thrown all my friends away, but that was before I moved away from everyone. I'm happy where I am, but I drive myself insane sometimes. There is way too much "I" in this entry. I. II. ( Read more... )

I don't want to dream anymore. I don't want to think anymore.

Shoot me.

...so the job didn't work out as I had hoped. The fiberglass in the air was irritating my eyes and giving me a throbbing headache, so they sent me home. Now I'm back to the job search, on which I have to push harder than ever because I have absolutely no time to spare. Staying where I am means far too much for me to give up or accept defeat ( Read more... )

I have work in an hour, for the first time in a few months. I'm nervous and excited. It's something I really need. Now I can start making things better.

This is one of those days where everything seems to go wrong, and all I can do is feel utterly useless. I understand, I just fucking hate it. There's nothing to do but let things run their course, I guess.

I've made a lot of wrong choices, but now I'm trying to make the right ones.