I'm losing more and more hope everyday. Hope for everything. I just really don't think my life is going to pick up..ever. And I just want to skip all the heartache and disappointment and hurt and just give up. everyday is such a struggle just to do the basic things. i hate being so depressed. i want nothing more than to just die. i really do. no ( Read more... )

i'm going to see what happens if i back off a little. i won't be messaging her and posting shit on her page and texting her. she has her new life. if she wanted to talk to me she would, right? i just really hope i don't get lost in the background. i mean, if i don't remind her i exist, will i be forgotten? will she randomly think of me and that she ( Read more... )

don't you hate it when you get left behind?i feel it happening. she's got two separate lives, and i don't belong in her new life. this is fucking killing me. how many times can a heart break? i keep setting myself up for these crushing falls. but i know we could make it. i know we could have that amazing life together, but it only works if both of ( Read more... )

ladies and gentlemen, when it comes to matters of the heart, please just be open and honest from the beginning. or say what you really mean.
i don't have a good feeling about this. i'm going to get so hurt :\

it's never colder than when you realized how alone you really are.

So...I might have a chance at leaving and moving into a house with a friend and pay more than reasonable rent and go to a great school and start a new life and have another chance at being happy. I have no hesitations about leaving except one. Her. I was dreading even telling her about it and I didn't know how to do it. But I talked to her last ( Read more... )

I'm so done with this life. it's no good. Its not cutting it. I'm not happy. So I've got to make a change. I've got to get away. I'm either going to join some sort of  military service, go live in peru, or just take my last paycheck and leave. It's not like I'm leaving much behind. My friends will understand. It's not like I'm leaving behind a girl ( Read more... )

It's been mad long hasn't it, guy? I don't even think I'm going to bother trying to tell you about all the shit that has gone down. Pretty much, new job and hopefully moving out soon. Oh yeah, Josie is out. No more girl. Things ended badly but oh well. I learned from it and moved on. As for any new girls? Just a handful. Nothing too special. But i ( Read more... )

so happy
cant stop it

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yup....in my White Tee