It's hard to listen to DCFC again but I love and missed it.

1) budgeting/debt (debt=increasing)
2) fitness (deteriorating)
3) work/school (lagging)
4) personal life (little personal growth despite much introspection, as evidenced by recurring issues in romantic relationships, and it may be said, friendships)

*sigh*

 I don't know if I can live with this/ignore this red flag. I cannot tell if our differences of opinion are irresolvable or if it's a matter of time. I can't tell if giving more time to talk it out would help. I kind of just went ahead and said things. I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. But since none of my relationships ever work out, I don ( Read more... )

 Best birthday yet =)

Day 1: Picked up Tyler and went to the hotel only to find that there was some hypnotist performing or something and they were sold out and we could "voluntarily relocate" and be comp'ed for our stay. So the hotel ended up being free which was cool, and we were only slightly inconvenienced. ^_^;; Amy, Lucia, Tyler and I went to ( Read more... )

 Went to Vegas with my dad for the Star Trek convention. Didn't leave the hotel/convention center the whole time O_O It was cool though...We saw all the panels of interest like Voyager, DS9, and Brent Spiner (who turned out to be a jerk, much to my disappointment), George Takei (who was AWESOME and told a cute story about his partner's proposal, ( Read more... )

"You say you're alone but my arms are open wide
You're looking for something that you won't ever find
Now it's raining so hard I can't see my own tears
You're giving me reason to put trust in my fears
Now I'm chasing a ghost cause there ain't no real thing
There's only a carcass left where our love used to stayI'm beginning to think that it's better ( Read more... )

It's nice to know that when he says "it's ok" after we fight, it actually is
that while he is strong, that strength will never be used against me
that if something is wrong, it will show on his face 
that if he says he will be there, he will
that if he doesn't answer his phone, it's because he didn't get my call, but he will call right back
that if ( Read more... )

Dinner at Eclipse was delicious: 
http://eclipsechocolat.blogspot.com/2009/07/new-england-seafood-dinner.html

Sunday I went with Eric to LA to visit YoungEun who is visiting from Korea to work with our old boss. We went to Venice Beach and ( Read more... )

 Despite my insanity, things are going well (I think). I think the world of him.

Work still sucks -.-;;

 Just started watching Weeds and was shocked that in the first two episodes, Rilo Kiley and Sufjan Stevens were played! Wow! I like.

I am suddenly very stressed at work. So behind in reading...so busy. Several long days. I am often alone doing not fun things while the person I like is out with friends. I find myself worrying and doubting everything ( Read more... )