i'm so fucking tired. i dont know what to do with myself anymore. 
people fucking treat me like shit and i cant say anything about it. 
i think my family has completely forgotten i exsist...and only have temporary relapse of memory when they need something from me. 
i wish it were september already, i wish i was in phoenix.

my sleep schedule is alll fucked up. i find it soo hard to live off of 4 in a half hours of sleep everyday. today i came home comepletely forgot to do my homework took off my shirt(because it was too freaking hott.) and fell asleep on the sofa. i just woke up at 3;30 remembering i didnt have a clean uniform for work today. fuck i feel crappy and ( Read more... )

i really dont want to....

but

your really tempting me

i'm really fucking tired. 
i hate being broke. 
boys suck bigger ass then ever. 
the quince is coming up...i cant wait for it. 
her movie still isnt done but o well i have tomorrow off.. plus its payday

at this moment i wish i were a raindrop.

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an unresonably large portion of my heart is hurting right now ( Read more... )

i heard the most amazing thing the other day while at work ( Read more... )

i dont understand why it takes me forever to realize i like someone. 
why is it so hard to tell that person?

i guess i'm afraid. 
it always works out the same. 
you tell that person,
even though they dont like you
they take the opportunity to lead you on to thinking they do,
and then 
rip your heart out of your chest...or at least thats just how it feels.

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wow i'm incredibly torn apart... this week is becoming such an emotional roller coaster ( Read more... )

1. new adventures
2. new <3's
3. leaving el paso...maybe?
4. moving out
5. paying off all my debts