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[iamnotliving]

God i feel so disgusting, I keep binge eating!! its horrible and i mean my binges are not like 400 cal but more like 3000 cals!! and its just like i go into a trance and cant stop until it hurts. Today i decided to go back to being Ana , i have type 1 diabetes though so i have to have some sugar, i decided to do only water, diet soda, and juice at

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[devil_kitten]

If you eat small meals 6 times a day you will lose weight without feeling fat!! Trust me it works, like for breakfaest eat a yogurt cup, then in 2 or 3 hrs a fruit. Then maybe a small sandwich. Then maybe another fruit or vegetable, and a small dinner. That way you will feel good about yourself but get nutrients in.

[iamnotliving]

Hey thanks for the tip :) ill try that

[striped_bat]

That entry is my life in approximately 100 words.

So have you succeeded at ana with diabetes? I kind of did, but then I had trouble working out because my blood sugars would bounce up really high, even though I'd barely eaten anything.

GOD this sucks, eh? Diabetes and eating disorders are bad enough alone...not that I would know exactly since for me they appeared one right after the other.

I don't really post on this username (paranoia thing), but... I don't know. I'm desperate to find someone else going through the same kind of thing. Suppport, empathy, etc.

[iamnotliving]

yeah my blood sugars were bouncing up really high alot, but then i just started to do about 2 units of humalog if i wouldnt eat anything and it stopped it from going anywhere, kind of weird considering there was no food but i think it has something to do with stress. Yeah Diabetes is HELL, its like you want to be able to control how much you eat and all that but when you get a low blood sugar you HAVE to eat and then it goes way high so you need insulin and then its low again!! GRRR I feel alot better when my bloodsugars are just a little high though , when they drop below 120 i start to feel really shaky and stuff. but yeah I REALLY could use someone to talk to about all this and yeah same as you support, empathy, and someone who doesnt say the annoying, "oh you have diabetes, that means you cant eat any sugar right?" lol thats sooo dumb! So how long have you had diabetes?

[striped_bat]

almost exactly 5 years. Since I was 13.

GOD I hate it when people think they know about diabetes and they REALLY don't. The worst was when someone thought that everyone with diabetes had type 2, and that the only cause of type 2 was eating too much sugar and being too fat. So they decided /Xtreme sarcasm/ to show off how knowledgable they were, and told me this after I'd told them I was diabetic. Niiiiice. I had to go and throw up.

This is why I support diabetes education. ;)

[iamnotliving]

yeah i know people are just dumb, inconsiderate bastards when it comes to diabetes !!! I have had that happen to me before too! I had to go back to diabetes education because they wanted to 'correct' my eating habits and 'fix' my bloodsugars lol it was so stupid! They put me on Lantis, a 24hr backround insulin, and now i have to take a shot at school too if i want to eat anything. The thing is my aunt is the secretary and i am supposed to go in the office to take my shot every day so she can 'see' me take it. I wish i had the ability to throw up, i cant ever do it! its like impossible for me to do , that or i am doing it wrong

[striped_bat]

Honestly, I wouldn't get started on throwing up. I feel like a hypocrite as I say that, since I just relapsed and did it again on sunday, but throwing up SUCKS and definately is not a solution.

I'm on lantis too. I actually like it, because it's basically like the pump except without this huge box on your hip constantly reminding you how freakish you are.

i HATE having to mix medical stuff and family. Both my parents are doctors and I go to the same hospital they work at and I think they know EVERY SINGLE DOCTOR THERE. It makes me totally paranoid to actually admit anything is wrong and get help.

Hey, by the way I started a community for diabetes and eating disorders. it's bloodandsugar. if you feel like joining. I'm the only member right now, but there must be other people around going through this too, right?

[iamnotliving]

wow both your parents are doctors? That must be really hard! But then again they could be really useful with the whole diabetes thing. Sure i would join, i hope theres alot more people with the same problems ( though i dont hope for anyone to have it too) lol