ok so i diddnt have keytoneacidosis but i did have to go to the hospital so they could keep track of me for a day. I had to go to california the next day and that was ok except i felt like a fat bastard because my mom kept making me eat!!!!! GOD I MEAN Pretzles, chips, popcorn, and when i asked for a salad she blew up and started yelling at me ! i ( Read more... )

AHHH ok so here it is, i had to go to the doctors today and get my zoloft upped. so i go and say that i have had the flu for two days and they were all ok lets check your blood sugars. My bloodsugars were over 600!!! i think they were close to 1000 though because after 4 hours and 15 units of humalog i was still a 550! They made me go to the ( Read more... )

AHH i am a fucking god damn FAT SON OF A BITCH!!!! Excuse the language but ok here it is THIS IS WHAT I JUST ATE WITHIN 1 hour!!!! after one day of fasting ( Read more... )

Well today was ok, my blood sugars have been in the 200's but i diddnt eat anything except a little black coffee with splenda and a bit of creamer so about 60 cals. I feel so shitty, i suffer from depression wich i have i am sure because of my eating disorder , and well ,, my eating disorder was caused mainly by my diabetes because the fn insulin ( Read more... )

God i feel so disgusting, I keep binge eating!! its horrible and i mean my binges are not like 400 cal but more like 3000 cals!! and its just like i go into a trance and cant stop until it hurts. Today i decided to go back to being Ana , i have type 1 diabetes though so i have to have some sugar, i decided to do only water, diet soda, and juice at ( Read more... )

hey so i started this journal because i really need some help. I am an on and off Ana and i really could use some support. NOT CRITICISM! You dont know what its like until you have it so there. I was recently 95 lbs about three months ago and now have balooned up to 124lbs!! ahhhh i know its gross! anyone want to talk you can leave me a message or ( Read more... )