why am i feel this way? shit shit shit! i'm sick of bragging this out, complaining? whatever. i guess it has improve? but dammit sometimes it gets really there, deeply. I hardly ever feel this way, especially for the longest time. i fucken love you!! damn that damn!! LOVE, ARGH!

Yes... I am. half ways that is. I'm way too fucken paranoid about the whole relationship thing. But yeah.. i feel more mellow out now. Joshua is a good guy (i think i said that about all the others too) I just don't wanna get screwed over AGAIN. But dude!! This one is different, 'cause i known him a year now, all the others were like hi lets be b/ ( Read more... )

*hugg attacks!!* I love you babe! I'm really happy that we're together, hope to see you this weekend 'cause i feel like i'm dying without you and i need some of that Joshua medicine. Your beautiful and Your my big teddy bear. My joshbear. I love you and i feel it. have a kick ass time ( Read more... )

I swear sometimes I feel like i'm gonna explode or something. Theres too many freakin feeling(s) in me. Mostly is.. sadness, lovish and stuff like that ( Read more... )

I can't remember how many times my mom and brothers called me retarded, stupid, dumb and annoying but it was a lot. everyday. at least 3 to 4 time. Mom already said it about 8 times today. hehe. My dad calls me stupid when i'm driving. haha. I'm 19, but i can't help it, wherever, whenever. pshhh... i guess i have to accept the fact that i stupid. ( Read more... )

and I probably already lost... in love.

You are the first "i love you ( Read more... )

Well. *a good sigh* hehe. Let me see. I was going crazy yesterday, especially at night, i didn't know what the hell to do! There was too much in me and it was just piling it up. It was hard to understand. I'm not even sure if i even fully understand it now. I talked to Josh, and felt a relief, little by little.. phew ( Read more... )

I went to Ozzfest toward the end to see the best bands that me and Linda like most, which is, first ( Read more... )

So about time us got together and made it Official, that is ( Read more... )