I remember being so angry when I was a bit younger ( Read more... )

I can't say how I feel at the moment.

I'm so excited about where I am and happy with what's to come in the very very near future,
but I've been thinking a lot about the past lately
and it kinda leaves me shaken, upsets me really
I miss the way my life used to be, the friends I used to have
Teachers I never had a chance to thank or show my appreciation ( Read more... )

thank you, cause now i just feel like proving you wrong.
now i feel like proving everyone wrong :]

Life is good.
Springs coming
Graduations coming
life life life life is coming :D

now i'm done lying to myself ( Read more... )

why can't I stop lying to myself?

i am happy
i'm not trying to live in the past
and i'm not trying to predict my future
i'm living for what makes me smile and laugh today
you're all so stuck waiting on something to happen
so stuck on what the future is gonna be like
yeah i look forward to things happening and i'm working for those things to happen
but it's not my life, my life is this ( Read more... )

i didn't know the kinds of things i should have known two years ago when it came to you
i still don't know those kinds of things now, i'm sure i should know.
you were such a good friend
i'm sorry i was so hurtful and mean
and i'm sorry you couldn't forgive me

what am i getting myself into?
am i just setting myself up?
am i going to have to say 'i told you so' to myself?
is there something to learn here?
is that why i am still doing it while paying no mind to the cons outweighing the pros?

zoop zoop
im happy in the meantime

'You better free your mind instead.'

do it.
listen to silence
realize that everything comes from it and descends back into it
it is there underneath every sound
it is always there.
something you are able to depend on
not be afraid of