I'm sitting here in 1st block suppost to be doing a fucking power point. How gay is that? I am so tired. I have a headache from hell and I don't know if it's from the things I have been doing lately or if well.. I just have a headache. I'm itching so bad. Um I miss brandon. I realy realy realy hope that I get to see him today. I love him. Um I hate ( Read more... )

Icy rain drops stabbing my body while I feel the world raining down upon me. Never could it amount to all of the tears being cried out of innocent eyes by reality. Stumbling down this road that feeds off of time I have come to find that the addiction hasn't faded away. So empty, like the bottom of the pill bottle. Here I lay all alone as the ( Read more... )

My body feels drained and exhausted. I don't realy have anything to say. Actually I have more than enough to say. Maybe if I just keep it inside rather that on the outside than that would prevent me from getting hurt by the world that would just judge me only because we are all simply human beings who each develop are own veiws and opinions. Thats ( Read more... )

Last night me and brandon layed in the grass and watched fireworks and he held me in his arms and it was so amazing. thats all that i realy have to say. I am in louisville at my sisters and corey is rambling on about a permanent marker scenario. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH its very fascinating haha. well im hungry although i cant eat b/c of my fucking teeth ( Read more... )

I was getting ready to go to sleep but something crept into my mind and possesed me to come get on the internet. I wonder sometimes if the things that I do are leading to a problem or if they already are. I have done been down that road once, only walking amung pathetic self sorrow. If only it was made to beleive that it was all okay. Every single ( Read more... )

I am sitting here eating crackers and drinking mountain dew out of the 2 liter that has already gone flat about a week ago. MY friend megan is upstairs sleeping in my bathroom floor the poor thing has a hangover from hell. It was her birthday I mean I would have got drunk too. A part of me wishes that I had of gone because on the way home this ( Read more... )

I am going to call Tyra in a minute. I am so glad to hear from her. I miss her so much. We have shared some happy dappy times!!!.....holy sheep shit batman!!!!!!! anyways I love brandon and everyone else in the world.

Meg

It's been awhile. I was lost somewhere on the road that feeds off of time as I battled the difference between right and wrong. I have fallen in love and when I thought that I had reached rock bottom I continued to fall. I was scared to fall deep into his eyes for the fear of drowning. I drank it up and now I am drunk off of love.........breathe ( Read more... )

I have decided that I am not done yet. I did not spill everything that is inside of me. I feel like I am loosing everyone all because I am completly stupid. Obviously look what I have been doing to myself. Fucking up over and over again knowing that it is wrong.I keep getting hurt in the end. What the hell was I thinking and why the fuck do I keep ( Read more... )

So its been forever and a day once again. I am so bored. We are doing power points in first block and we are in the computer lab and I have no clue what I am doing. I am very sleepy.It will all be okay. Um I dont realy know what to say but life is weird and stuff. Yip and it is hard. I am going to TRY to stop smoking when i get my braces on wich ( Read more... )